Saturday, November 13, 2010


Never assume you are done with your lesson on love/hate/reproduction/society/fear - this will intensify your feelings and bring in front of you such lesson in form of a horde of wild things. Learn, accept and let go if your to learn something new of it later let it come, don't fight the experience by ticking off boxes of done with that, and that, and that... Be free to experience everything as long as you are here.

~ ☆ ☮ ☆ ~

Day 11 (Nov 13):  What do I need to let go of in order to reveal my emerging wholeness?
From Tracy Gendron at:

Blue Storm Qualities: Catalyst, transformer, liberator, activation for ascension, purification, light body, transformation, reunion, thunderbeing, lightning path, initiation by fire, ecstasy of freedom, self-generation.

In the shadow of Cauac are held issues of spiritual separation. Cauac bridges the time and space between physical and nonphysical realities. This space can be viewed as a wall or veil between you and the Creator. The intensity of your desire to go 'home' is often met with equal force from the collective belief in separation. At times, you may even experience a sense of despair and helplessness over the apparent gap between you and Spirit.

Take courage - you will move through the wall! During this process, you may encounter intense feelings related to the original trauma of separation from Source. But equally intense feelings will take you through the wall to sacred reunion on the other side. On this journey, you will meet and deal with the charge of that part of your power that has not been freed into love. And in your yearning for your spiritual home, you will be assisted by ascended beings and masters whose purpose is to aid in your return.

A prominent shadow of Cauac is the fear of loss, the fear that by jumping into the unknown, you will lose everything: companions, loved ones, attachments, possessions - perhaps even your body or mind. Cauac is the crucible of revolution. This transformation is so inclusive that you may be reluctant to take risks for fear of the depth of change. You may even have feelings of despair or giving up. Though it can appear frightening, this process is actually there to serve you - to magnify your feelings until you address them, using them as fuel to propel you through the transformational barrier itself.

Another shadow of Cauac falls on those who seek to escape or transcend earthly reality through addictions of all kinds - to substances, fears, self-doubts, material comforts, relationships, sexual obsessions, and work, among others. Addictions are like incomplete rites of passage, where compulsive behaviour creates a feeling of being trapped rather than being free. They may offer the appearance of freedom, but only spiritual connection can offer true freedom. On the other hand, the desire from a new or altered state can become an indirect spiritual path leading to transcendence. Thus the escape is incomplete, yet it eventually brings one to the opportunity of a profound transformation.

Any illusions you may have about self are magnified intensely through the lens of Cauac.

When you experience separation from Spirit's love, questions of Essence Self and issues of archetypal self-worth arise. This separation springs from a basic denial of your oneness with Spirit. Denial can be seen as consciously or unconsciously holding something away from yourself, and it creates an energy loss and a feeling of disconnection from your potential.

However, that which feels like it has been lost returns when you forgive yourself. Accept your human process, freeing the power and potential that has been locked in your fear-based emotions. Accept your behaviours as part of your learning experience. Let go of the rigid belief systems and judgements that hold denial in place.

Acceptance is the allowance that creates freedom, and separation is the guide to union. You may tend to deny your feelings and your growth process, thinking that you are above them or have already worked through them. This denial amplifies and intensifies the feelings until they come into awareness. Know that the intensity of your process is also healing your cellular and genetic memory, as well as the collective issues of humanity and the planet. Simply accept the truth of your experience, no matter how intense or difficult it may seem. Embrace everything that happens to you and you will regain all the vital energy that can be applied to the purposes of evolution.

~ ☆ ☮ ☆ ~

Niina: (I will fill this in at the end of the day )

The Dream: First, there were people who were bad people, I was somehow with them, there was an airplane we jumped out off, they weren't suppose to but one guy pushed the other out and they didn't get away. In the ground the guy 2 said he could be good, the guy 1 said what the heck let's do that.
Second, there was house without much in it, my dad's side of the family was there, he was drunk and puked a little under my bed and I had to go sleep in my sister's room. We didn't live there just passing by.
Third, I remember my mom at the library and calling in to get three things.
Fourth, was community living in cute little houses, it had all kinds of goofy charachters, but I recall stopping a car so it didn't drive over a little white dog.

Airplane = Airplanes, like all other vehicles, symbolize a portion of your life's journey. The part of your life which is represented is usually a memory, material from your unconscious mind, or something that is physically far away from you. Since we use planes to travel to places that are far away, the logical progression of this interpretation is that the airplane is symbolic of an event, individuals, or emotions that are either in the past, physically apart from you, or deep in the unconscious and far from conscious thought. ( jumping off the plane means something then, seperating from the past )
Parachute = To dream that you are in a parachute signifies a feeling of safety and security amidst dangers and chaos around you. On the other hand, it may also imply that it is time to get out of a sticky situation or let go of an old opinion or notion that you have mightily held on to for a long time. To dream that you have difficulties with a parachute signifies a probable act of betrayal and misgiving by a person you trust and rely on. ( let go of an old opinion or notion )
House = They usually symbolize our emotional and psychological selves. All of your experiences, stages of development, and parts of your conscious and unconscious life may be represented by that house. The house may be representing issues concerning a particular dilemma in your life, or it may be more general and comprehensive. Either way, if you pay attention to the details in this dream, you may learn a thing or two about yourself. ( I'm getting impatent what is this I am letting go off - dream I demand you tell me right now *pout* )
Father = Dreams with fathers in them can be looked at on several different levels. You may be dreaming about your father and expressing your feelings about him in a safe way. Traditionally, a father dream can be seen as symbolizing authority and power. In the dream you may be expressing your attitude about strengths and weaknesses as they relate to your position in life and your general attitude toward society. ( authority and power being toxicated and ending up being sick. I wasn't ick'ed about it just moved to another room in the house - I noticed that something was wrong I decided I was better off emotionally and psychologicaly away from authority in sociaty )
Mother = If you are dreaming about your mother, you may be addressing some issues or concerns in your dream, or your dream may be based on a valuable memory. The general image of "mother" in a dream may symbolize a variety of feelings and ideas: caring, nurturing, love, acceptance, hard work, sacrifice, martyrdom, etc. The mother in your dream could also represent the "collective unconscious," the source of the "water of life," and the yin. Carl Jung suggests that women in dreams represent our collective unconscious and men the collective consciousness. ( Where authority and power/collective consciouness were sick the nurturing energy of a mother/collective unconsciouness was giving something, information )
Three = In a dream, the number three is a sign of stamina, might, ingenuity and introspection. The number represents a threesome -- the olden days, the current moment, and times to come; or dad, mom and baby. ( as all the rest is about past I think three presents the old days and my mother's nurturing when authority failed mom and I )
( Community ) Village = To dream that you are in a village is indicative of the boundaries placed on your waking life. It may also indicate that while you maintain balance and harmony in your life, your pursuits and interests are unsophisticated and unrefined. The village has long represented tradition and the simple way of life. ( I do have noticed lately how much I am starting to dislike [things I just lately use to admire and fancied] the following sophisticated and refined symbols like, wine, adds, parties, restaurants, skycrapers and posh lifestyle, clothing, styles - I do so much want to live a simple, pure life in the country side and in a small self sufficient spiritual community )
Dog = Dogs in dreams could symbolize a large variety of ideas and concepts, but mostly they are symbolic of the dreamer's defensive structure and may represent personal boundary issues. Otherwise, dogs could symbolize loyalty and hard work. On the metaphysical level, dogs are consider to be the guardians of the underworld. ( a defensive structure and personal boundries that I have within the village / simple spiritual live )
White = To dream of the color white is symbolic of exclusivity, the new world, appeal, protest, reform, miscarriage succession, virginity, purity, simplicity, justice and innocence. ( my simple spiritual life is built on defensife structures of purity, exclusiveness,justice, simplicity reform and being a new world [new earth anyone] )
Car = The car in your dream may symbolize the physical self or ego development and ego function. In that, it represents the way that you travel through your life's journey. Consider all of the details in the dream, including its emotional content e.g. difficulty of the road, identity of the driver, direction of the incline. (oh the ego! Trying run over my defensive structure mention above - but I stopped it so you know... tough for it )

Niina's Dream Interpetation: I'm ready to leave and let go of the Past. What part of the past, the part of the society that is drenched in authority and power with collective approvement of such sophisticated pleasures as trendy clothes, skyscrapers, restaurants, designer perfumes, sunglasses, adds adds adds everywhere you look, selling selling selling to you. Be this prettiness or kill yourself, eat this yummy toxic thing, borrow money to buy stuff to your date, sell your body for screentime. That kind of sophicticated.
I am ready to give that up, ( I've already consciously not looking at adds anymore ) I do not care if "brainwashed to sophisticated" people see me as unrefined and unsophisticated - that is their right - mine is to not be moved by other people's view of me.
I do very much want to simplify my life - green fields, laughing happy people in peace with nature, small community that has similar values still being individuals with sense of humor and  morals and ethics. Supportive community of co-creators - NOT consumers.
I can see where my ego is trying to derail me now... I'm sorry ego you are just going to have to sit back on your seat and enjoy the ride. ;)

Oh how I enjoy these dream interpeting days!

Love, Light and Joy!


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