MY EGO AND ME IN A SPIRITUAL PATH

I am starting to feel something that could develop into frustration if I let it - it's due to the fact that I am still searching new ways to evolve spiritually, but what I find in the world now is something I've already dealt with, released and moved on.

Just this morning few moments ago I received a free small course on releasing mind to reach my goals and dreams. Which is fine, except I am past earthy goals and dreams such as being successful or rich or living in the Bahamas.

I am fully content with the state of my life, I do not need or want anything external or internal to change. Not any of my emotions, they all precious and tools for great self-knowledge which is part of our existence on this planet.

I am aware of the illusion of material life, I am aware of how much I need of material things to keep the body alive - all else, I do not need. I have no desire to be successful. Would someone please give even a semi-reasonable spiritual reason why we should have more than we need or more than another sister or brother of ours?

I do not feel comfortable with "goals" anymore - if I need something I take the necessary steps to acquire it, and if it is meant to be it is what I shall receive because it truly was needed. I have come to figure out that things I do not need I will not receive - I think this has been a theme to learn in this life time, along with what comes with that Lesson which is: Total freedom of Attachments of all things material. But it leaks into emotional life as well and I cannot say there are too many things I am attached to. 

Not being Attached I'd like to share doesn't mean you cannot feel sad when you two depart from each other.

As I write this I'm reminded of a recent article I read, "Ego Valaistumista Etsimässä" ( Ego Searching for Enlightenment ) in which the writer explores how the Ego wants to set out to find Enlightenment because it is one of those things it can be superior in than other people ( clever Ego, right ), so it sets out to get the perfect religion which it dictates is the one right religion, of course it is quite afraid of dying so eventually it gives and start to try and find reincarnation. After Ego is researched on this spiritual road it gets a guru, it sits under the feet of him and demands the Highest teachings from him. The ego loves to get the most exotic guru, because he can boast with it and beat other searchers of truth. After this Ego searches for knowledge on spiritual journeys and evolution, coming in contact with choices which separate him from others so that he can feel a bit more right than others again. When Ego comes across master of Light he wants to be one, and charges to the path but realizes soon that this would mean letting go of all kind of baggage. This Light is in front of it now and the Ego fears it, but as Light has entered the Ego cannot undo his actions and tries to focus on tidbits of knowledge instead of the Light of the Soul and divinity. But Ego soon sees there is not enough of organized information and hence it gets happy cause there are life times of information to go through and organize.

That is putting a very long article very shortly here, I recommend you get the newest Minä Olen, the article is there on pages 32-35. I wish it was in english as well as it is Amazing.

So why am I looking for more knowledge when all that I see is pretty much useless to me? Should I keep on looking for information, new ideas, and old ideas to evolve - or focus on the Light?

The Light is my life, it is in my Heart and Mind, in my Consciousness, it is in my sense of humor, and it is in the eyes of everyone I meet. So why am I hesitant to give my whole life to it - I have to work, it seems a contradiction. What if giving myself to the light fully means... But it won't, I know it won't. Silly Ego.

I can see it front of my eyes - that life, it's as easy as breathing, why would I not want to have that light in my life?

That said I am off to meditate!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

SPRING ME!

Few days back I was feeling this very deep sense of Peace and Happiness, an emotion, feeling so strong it was literally uplifting, everything that day seemed to go well, and things that didn't were resolved almost immediately with clear perspective of matters. One of those days that isn't perfect, but sure feels like it!
I love those!
I took a new profile picture for Facebook that day, and I though I'd share with You as well!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

ON MY MEDITATION JOURNEY

I remember the first time I tried meditation... I could not hold still, my whole body protested this new thing with itches, jerks, uncomfortable feelings in muscles. And my attention spand was a whopping 2 minutes.
Luckily as I searched more about Meditation I learned that this is common with beginners. The body, the ego are put off by this new thing that is stripping time and awareness from them.
I came across a mention that to overcome this is to in a way challenge yourself. To know you are doing it right is to do this persistantly until you no longer react or give attention to any twitching.
When you are doing it right is when absolutely nothing gets your attention, not jerks or dogs that come sniff you.
Eventually I passed - took me about a few days to be and not be-in-attention to myself.

Next big step was visualisation - what a hoot that was! And tough to begin with. My guide notes said that to begin was to sit in the lotus position (legs gently crossed, spine straight, hands on your thighs/knees, palms up, breathing deeply but gently) and look at an apple infront your eyes, then close your eyes and invision the apple infront of you. Turn the apple look at it from all the angles. This was easy - as I have always had a good imagination.
Next step was to create a rose, without having an example. This was harded, and as I did manage to make a rose - on close inspection it was just a thought of a rose look-a-like, it literally took almost a week to create a visualisation with life, petals, and scent and texture that was a as real if not more real than in the world of forms and atoms.
But after that meditation has been amazing - I see so much, in such vibrant colors.

Ofcourse visualization is the most important thing you have to be accustomed to, to be a Channeller (use to be called medium).
I probably would have not been that succesful in channeling my quides if I didn't have such a vivid imagination and newly acquired skills in visualization. It sure made it easier to begin with. But how I started channelling is whole different topic. So back to meditation...

There are two types of meditation.
First is being still silent, without thought- simply being present, breathing and detaching. It is Zen, it is Buddhist.Then there is the Second kind where you vision, hear, feel and explore your Higher Self, help your body to live in a human form.
I love both deeply, they both have their use.

When I am at stress, in anger or in desperation the Vision Meditation reminds me that all things happen for a reason in our human form, peace and happiness the opposite of my fearful state is only few breaths away.

And the Still Meditation connects me to my essence, where I am not human I am energy unattached for emotions and feeling and exist to be pure lightness and light.


I've been meditating since I was 16 and I cannot imagine my life without it.

More on Meditation at Previous Blog Post.

ANGEL EXPERIENCE & DIANA COOPER'S TRILOGY

I noticed sitting on the sofa that my wedding rings were no longer on my ring finger. I stood up looked all over the sofa, alerted husband to search through the whole apartment, twice. I got fairly anxious, and very nervous, and to admit it I did snap at husband for suggesting I'd just placed them somewhere and forgot about them.

Then I remembered... ask the angels for help. So I stood there in the clothing closet, eyes closed and in my mind stated: "Angels, Help me find my rings, my wedding rings." I specified. ;)
I opened my eyes looked into the undies drawer found one, looked through the whole drawer and find the other one.

With one quick request I found my rings in ten seconds.

I'm on Book 3 of Diana Cooper's Spiritual Trilogy.
The Silent Stones and The Codes of Power were such a good Spiritual Read, even though I knew this already the reminder was great. :) And I think we all know this already on the soul level, it's just a matter of how much you trust your intuition and how well you can connect this to your life.