OBSTACLES

"I need honest feedback - how do you think I'm limiting myself? - spiritually speaking."
"Well, you could be more ambitios."
"You mean, I should go after what I want, when I know what I want?"
" Yes."

Day 2 (Dec 27): What are my relationships teaching me? What are my Obstacles?

White Mirror Qualities: Reflecting others back to themselves, endlessness, shattering truth, clarifier, spiritual warriorship, discrimination, timelessness, clarity, hall of mirrors, sword of truth, facing shadow, integration of paradox.

Have you unconsciously created a reality in which you seem lost or confused? In this shadow, you may feel enmeshed in the illusions of the hall of mirrors. Remember that the only real power the hall of mirrors has is your belief that its grand illusions are real! On Earth, we presently live on a holographic playing field made of the elements of time and space. This field draws to itself the density and mass necessary to form a three-dimensional reality. All phenomena within it are images that appear for our learning and growth. Since each of us is a hologram of light within the larger hologram, getting lost in fear, judgement, and denial can certainly appear to be "real", but it is really only an illusion. The essential mind is silent, still, empty - hence, incapable of getting lost.

The transformation offered in this shadow is found by being mindful. Meditate and pray for the reestablishment of your direct connection to Spirit. Become quiet and still. Imagine yourself floating timelessly in the center of the star-glyph White Mirror, receiving divine wisdom. Cut away with clear discrimination. Forgive and release yourself and others. Enter into the timeless truth of the spiritual warrior.

Another shadow transformation of White Mirror may be found in seeing yourself clearly in the mirrors of the world and other people. Using others as mirrors allows you to experience hidden truths about yourself. Ask for honest feedback from friends you trust. Risk hearing the truth about yourself. Openly observe the events in your life to see how they can be used to better understand who you actually are.

One of the most self-limiting illusions is the belief that one's own view of reality is the only one. This often causes the mirror of the world to reflect back to you your "unseen" shadow, and when you see this shadow, it can produce a judgement or reaction. Such emotionally charged situations usually have two poles or positions. When you believe that only you are right, both poles remain charged and fixed. For a moment, experiment with letting go or changing your position. As you loosen your hold and step aside, the "other position" or person is freed to change as well.

Understand that judgement and acceptance are two sides of the same mirror - the transparent mirror of ascension.

It's Day 2 of Red Earth Wavespell.

More information here: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/Wave_Red_Earth.html

NEW YEAR - LAST YEAR

Tracy Gendron from *~Light Center~* on Facebook send the best NEW YEAR post I've gotten this year, so here follows - I've bolded some of the high lights for me, though it all rings true.

I have been thinking a lot about 2010's new-to-us vibration and am thinking it would be a wonderful thing to follow the Red Earth Wavespell that started today (Red Magnetic Earth - Day 1 - Dec 26, 2009 - How do I call forth the resonance of my true vibration within the context of the new energy available in 2010?) and carries on through to the New Year's Day energy (Blue Resonant Night) to the final 13th day: Red Cosmic Moon on Jan 7, 2010.

To me, this 13 day Wavespell, is the bridge that carries us into the New Beginnings that the 2010 vibration embodies - so I'll be riding it and paying attention and I hope that many of you will join me! I just read through some of the key days (first, 7th for New Year's Day and the last day) and, wow, it sounds reeeeally exciting you guys!

Numerologically, 2010 is significant because we start a new cycle with the '10' energy. In 2009 we did a lot of clearing, wouldn't you say? I know I did! Being the last number in the cycle (9) - energy was available to wrap up the old, clear out shadow stuff, limiting beliefs, restrictive situations and basically do some house-cleaning on a emotional-mental level. Of course, any house-cleaning on the physical bodily level helps to clear out the old to make room for the new, too! I found myself quite sick for much of 2009 with strange mystery illnesses but my mental/emotional self mirrored this physical state, too. I found myself quite angry and impatient and having trouble in particular relationships...it felt like all this old gunk that had accumulated emotionally was being activated so it could come to the surface, I could take a look and deal with it (instead of thinking: oooh I'm never angry!) and then, voila, clear it out forever, yay! I ended my year with an amazing Master Cleanse that put me back in perfect health - and I'm planning on starting another one with my mom on January 1st just because it's the only time we can do it together. If any of y'all are interested in that we can discuss it over on the MC discussion thread.

(Blogger's Note: I ended my year with Flu, it was almost like a last cleanse before New Year. My flu ended on the 26th - I take that as a sign)

SO - NEW is where we're headed. In fact, to me, it feels like I am completely new myself....all those beliefs I had about myself have been sloughed off and I'm feeling free and unencumbered - ready to co-create this next new phase from a clear, fresh-eyed place. Anyone else feeling this way?

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... as we approach 2010 and have been open, once again, to creating something absolutely new in my life. I encourage you all to plug in to whatever source or tool that helps to guide you (dreams, meditation, writing, synchronicities) to let the energies know that you are up for creating something stunningly new and amazing in your life and that you'll pay attention to all the signs and signals you receive.

Remember 10 energy is: Intuition, Fortune, Luck, A turn for the better, New Beginnings. We have the 0 (divine power) working through the 1 (mars) to bring about a burst of new energy that brings about new starts and a change in fortune. The Wheel of Fortune (card #10) is ruled by Jupiter

Because 2010 reduces to a 3 it's good to keep in mind that 3 energy is available to you too: Growth, Travel, Self-Expression. The Empress (card #3) is ruled by Jupiter and Venus.

Lots of Jupiter energy available in 2010 which is fantastic for growth, expansion, optimism, luck and benevolence. Ahhhh I just checked to see what Jupiter is actually doing in 2010 and I see that on New Year's Day Jupiter is conjunct Neptune (significant spot! - dreaming big, benevolent, idealistic feelings of universal love...) and then at the end of January Jupiter moves into Pisces (it's just spent the last year in Aquarius) which means that at some point in 2010 Jupiter will conjoin Uranus (expect the unexpected) in Pisces....that brings Benevolent Changes, big surprises...great to catapult you into a brand new 10 cycle!

So, with Jupiter in Pisces - people with planets in the water and earth signs will be feeling verrrrry positive and open to having the Universe shower you with blessings!

(Blogger's Note: I'm a Taurus so as an earth sign I'll be right up there with the positive)

If you want to follow along with the wavespell that will bridge us into 2010 go here: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/Wave_Red_Earth.html We can think of the 13 day Wavespell as a concentration of the energies and ideas and feelings and manifestations for 2010 and the whole new cycle that starts in 2010.

To briefly sum up - it's like in order to reap all the benefits we need to first Ground, center and be present Now through Red Earth energy.....then on New Year's Day the vibration is: Blue Resonant Night which gives us an idea of what 2010 is about for Dreamspell......Being Conscious Dreamers to 'dream a different reality into being'! Wow - that is exciting! New Beginnings individually and collectively, of course, with our conscious-dreaming!

Theme for 2010: "In becoming a conscious dreamer, you can assist in literally creating a new reality for yourself, as well as constributing to the larger dream that is emerging. By focusing on this creation, your thoughts and intentions are projected at superluminal speeds across the crystal grid network that encompasses universes. This energetic field seeds, supports, and empowers the creation of an unfolding reality."

And, the final day 13th where you surrender to the perfection of the larger pattern of 2010 is with Red Moon, the cosmic seed of awakened awareness. MMM mmm! Surrendering to remembering ALL that you are. We are all Masters.
I wish you all a magical, exciting, new 2010 filled with wonderful surprises you've never dreamed of (but feel familiar) that catapult you into our beautiful World that is already Heaven on Earth. It already exists. Let's expand it together...

In Lak'esh,
Tracey
White Crystal Mirror

Explains why I came back to my blog here yesterday - of all days! - and why I am so very drawn to my tarot deck this morning, it's time to break out the Crowley back and take a good look at myself.

IT'S BEEN TOO LONG

It's really been too long since my last post, so here I am.
I haven't seriously been here since last x-mas, even though there are few posts this year.

Why the break? Well, I guess I've been happy. Really. :) I seem to so call nest when I'm happy. But let's look back...
I wrote a 50 000 word novel in November - which I haven't edited yet.
I went back to my healthy eating plan and exersice - until back and flu interrupted.
Summer was great I visited Porvoo and Kuhmo - this also led to the many uploads to my FLICKR.
I recently got back my photo-bug and now I'm photoshopping away after snapping pictures.


Here's "Smiling Tea" From flickr.com/niinac

Something very sad happened too, my grandmother passed away - it was during surgery so the death wasn't painful, which I'm very happy about - what I'm not happy about it that my father informed me a day later instead of the same day, I could have tried to make the passege as easy as possible for her.
The funeral was filled with tears, ofcourse I'm sad to lose a HUGE part of my childhood memories and their occupant but then again, we all die. Tao states: The third treasure is humility, to know that you have come from nothing and that you return to nothing. It's soothing, and eases the pain - why should I not be happy and proud of the soul journey she did, I'm sure she's happier now, wiser and at ease.

With this said, I gave you the main points of my year - the rest of it was work at the kindergarden and daily life with down and lows AND tons and tons of books - Kaari Utrio - J.D.Robb - Lincoln Child - Charlaine Harris and some Twilight.

Much love to you all!

DIANA COOPER ANSWERS MY FREEMASON QUESTION

Diana Cooper - Freemansons

http://www.dianacooper.com/index2.php?option=com_content&do_pdf=1&id=609

I asked Diana a question earlier about Freemasonry as there are so many negative things people write about it, and as I trust Diana with esoteric and spiritual knowledge I wanted to know what she knew of Freemasonry and if the spirits of those who are involved with the organisation are safe.

Click above links to see her answer. :)

CODES OF POWER

ANGEL EXPERIENCE & DIANA COOPER'S TRILOGY

I noticed sitting on the sofa that my wedding rings were no longer on my ring finger. I stood up looked all over the sofa, alerted husband to search through the whole apartment, twice. I got fairly anxious, and very nervous, and to admit it I did snap at husband for suggesting I'd just placed them somewhere and forgot about them.

Then I remembered... ask the angels for help. So I stood there in the clothing closet, eyes closed and in my mind stated: "Angels, Help me find my rings, my wedding rings." I specified. ;)
I opened my eyes looked into the undies drawer found one, looked through the whole drawer and find the other one.

With one quick request I found my rings in ten seconds.

I'm on Book 3 of Diana Cooper's Spiritual Trilogy.
The Silent Stones and The Codes of Power were such a good Spiritual Read, even though I knew this already the reminder was great. :) And I think we all know this already on the soul level, it's just a matter of how much you trust your intuition and how well you can connect this to your life.

Orbs

http://www.dianacooper.com/index.php?Itemid=155&id=284&option=com_content&task=view

CLEANSING & BLESSING

11/365 Energy
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

From Diana Cooper's newest Newsletter:

"Here is a reminder of a way you can help the prosperity consciousness of the world, which is very needed. As coins are metal they retain the negativity of those who have touched them and continue to spread that energy. You can serve by cleansing the coins you receive and filling them with prosperity consciousness. Then they will circulate feelings of abundance to those who touch them.

Cleansing coins
Waft them over a flame, ask for the fire to cleanse them and visualise the negativity pouring out of them and being transmuted. Alternatively you can invoke the gold and silver violet flame and visualise it round the coins, transmuting the old.

Filling them with abundance consciousness
Picture the coins being filled with golden light and ask that everyone who touches them is blessed with happiness, love, success and prosperity.

Remember that all you give out to others comes back to you multiplied."

INTERNAL INSIGHT ON MY SOUL

I should start by saying I see people....
Really.



I sometimes do have to force myself to really see the person, but normally it comes naturally.
I can meet someone casually, or stand next to them on a bus stop, and no matter if they happen to have something that bothers me, I force myself to see the good, the positive, the purest quality they have. Why? Because we should be able to love everything. Why? Because the opposite of love is selfishness.
And your Soul gets nowhere being selfish.

It's the natural state of the soul to exist, the Soul itself doesn't need love or an ego, it's beyond that, it's pure and needs no adjectives to describe it.
But while we are in our bodies, we do need love and ego to balance us until we continue on from earth.

Selfishness in it's natural state is introverted, guarding, possessive, fearful and negative in all it's aspects.

Love in it's natural state is unconditional, forgiving, empowering, giving, positive and pure.



What I've found that works for me is, equality.
Every single person gets from me positive loving attitude, words and actions. I admit I have my moments of cussing, but it's directed at me. Which is no better, as I am just as unconditionally lovable as everyone else. But I am still a person with an ego, we can't get rid of it, and we shouldn't try, we will eventually be born without it and when that's the case you no longer will be in school (read earth).
My ego does try and rule me, of course it's the Fear in me, ego fears everything that I love, but it's easy to calm it down when you know what it's motives are, after all it's only trying to protect you in it's twisted own way.
It doesn't like it when you are hurt, when people hurt you or when you lose something. It's the epitome of possessive.

It's surprisingly easy to see everyone as equals.

I started when mom use to get into hospitals a lot when I was a kid, she showed me doctors are just as much like us as anyone else.
After that her best friend became star of couple TV shows, and few famous people visited our house too, and again she taught me they are just as human as us.
Many things followed that taught me the same thing, no one is above you or below you.

I have to say seeing people aren't below you is harder than seeing they aren't above you, I think it's in our genetic make-up to feel we can't be put down, but harder to see if we are putting someone down in the process.
When I see something hard for me to accept, like a person who still choose to live on the streets and drink and shout and cuss for a life, I find it hard to find anything positive to see or say. Nothing gets to me like people who don't love themselves… I see this empty vast black hole where there should be a person with gracefulness, light and joy. It is so hard for me, and that's where I have to grow, even if I don't for the love of the goddess and the god understand it doesn't mean I have the right to block that person, they probably need me more than any person who knows love themselves.

To see the good in people and focus on that, makes the person in front of you hold on to the feeling of being loved and they go about wanting that feeling more and acting accordingly to achieve it. What more can you ask from that little life we live than to love and be loved in return.

All this beautiful art that resonates deep into the Soul, can be respectfully found here at Kagaya's Home page:http://www.kagayastudio.com/celes/celes.html and http://www.kagayastudio.com/

SPIRITUAL ORIGIN

What's the Origin of Me?

I have, countless times, wondered and tried to educate myself in the matters of spiritual origin of people. Spiritual Origin of Me.

There are many ways to go with it, and still I seem to relate to the weirdest of them... I know souls come to earth from different places, different pasts...

I still feel that it's important for me to know how human beings came to be.

I know we are just one small portion of DNA away from primates... There is something in that small spec of life that makes us different. Scientist don't know it... people speculate a lot.

There is Personal Truth. Personal Truth depends on the scale of wisdom, scale of experience and scale of memory at the current reincarnation.

That is why people argue, no two minds are at the same level of all three indicators of Personal Truth.

So there is no point in arguing the Origin, the Essence of Humans, because no one will really be able to agree with you in all the details.

So have your personal truth and when you grown, let your personal truth grow too... it would be so unfair to not let part of you grow with yourself.

JAPANESE ESSENCE TO MY HAPPINESS

Bambu with Sented Candle
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

I talked with a new spirit guide today.

I invisioned myself in Japanese Garden, sitting in small garden temple with no wall, just a floor and pillars and the roof, surrounded by a pond, cherry blossom trees, pine needles and a forest.

I was guided by Lii, who told me why I was so invested at the moment in Historical Japanese Culture.

I needed tranqulity, stillness, peace, slow rythm of routine. I had during the past stood too much in the middle of a hectic, busy, nerving, spiralling windtunnel of stress and anxioty. When I finally detached myself from it I slowly found balance that has now grown to search for stillness, peace and tranquility to truly be happy.

First I had to force feed myself joy and happiness to get out of the depression and now that it's done I can really stop and listen what it is that I need so that I can genuinly be truly happy.

Simplicity, Peace, Stillness and Tranquility.