RED MOON WAVESPELL - DAY 3 - PLAY, LOVE, DANCE & SING!

I think in light of what I am writing here this morning I should give you a heads up.
Until yesterday I was complitely unaware of this negative emotion against me, but once you see something you cannot unsee it. No matter how much you try you cannot erase it.

I posted a video on Lightworkers about HeartMath that studies the connection between the heart and the Brain, and after that relating to it I posted another video about Global Coherence which is sort of do-good experiment in global mediation and earth's geomagnetic field - and how they are at the same wave lenght.
This was a while ago, well yesterday I saw two comments had been left on it.
Calling me NWO (New World Order) and asking me who funded me.
Alright well my mind reacted to this, I wanted to let it be and not reply as I didn't think anything good would come out of me 'defending' myself online.
But the rest of the day I could not get it off my mind.
I do not know this person, what if he is violent, should I be afraid? My mind went yadda-yadda-yadda and 'on and on' about it.
Not healthy I know. I tried all the tricks in the book to let it go, but it didn't happen.
I know some Lightworker don't seem to know how to defend themselves, well I see my self in that.
I just have to pick something up. I can't let mere comment get me ruffled and fearing the worst.

My dream sure let me have it!
Now to the Wavespell!

~ ☆ ☮ ☆ ~

Day 3 (Nov 5): How does my creativity express my spiritual journey?

Blue Monkey Qualities: innocence, spontaneity, play, magic, inner child, humour, disruption.

Blue Monkey represents the Divine Child, the child that is ever in a state of open-hearted wisdom, innocence, trust, simplicity and joyful wonder. What would it feel like to actually be a magical child in this culture and time? The secret that very few know - because they may feel more comfortable trying to protect themselves - is that the divine child offers the strongest of all protections, the invulnerability of openhearted Love. Through innocence, a kind of immunity is created that allows the divine child to be transparent so that the apparent 'slings and arrows' of the world can pass right through without being personalized into wounds, reactions or hurt feelings. This is the path of innocence regained. Transparency is the path of the new consciousness.

In this New Myth, your spontaneous, divine child will usher in and anchor the new frequency. How can you heal your inner child? Explore what truly gives you joy. Find types of work that support your sensitivity and create deep satisfaction. Be simple: love, play, dance, draw, colour, sing. These activities are for all divine children - they serve the expression of the magical child in everyone. Consciously make time for the joyful freedom and magic of play!

The number for Blue Monkey is eleven, the vibration wherein novelty and spontaneity break down resistant forms. When unity merges with Essence Self, a mystical foundation is created that disintegrates old patterns. This is actually integration in disguide. As your walls tumble down, they crack into a smile, and the illumination of self shines through.

~ ☆ ☮ ☆ ~

Niina: Well-- This is going to be easy! As I work as a Kindergarden Teacher / Daycare Nanny I spend my days with playing, dancing, drawing, coloring and singing! Well-- of course there is the work part as well but I like to focus my thoughts on the funness of the day at end of each day.

"What would it feel like to actually be a magical child in this culture and time?" See my Wednesday 3rd Entry.

"As your walls tumble down, they crack into a smile, and the illumination of self shines through." See my Thursday 4th Entry.

It is no coinsident that I am today going out with my mother and her boyfriend to watch a satire of our prime minister called "Koljatti/Goliath". My mom's old childhood friend is in the lead, and he's excellent in his performances to make people laugh! So I am going Let Go and be a kid outside work as well!

The Dream: My husband lived in a shady neighbourhood, he was out of town and a man on the street said I should not stay in his appartment while the doorman is gone cause the people who live there are bad. I say them with very nasty swords, and leadpipes looking at me.
I left the place and went down to the metro, a sevige had proke there and there was no water but sewage waste around, everywhere as it was down four flights from surface. I finally caught a lift back up and had to go to my husbands appartment. I manged to get in unnoticed but people kept knocking on the door seeing if I was there.
In another dream I was in an old house with only one heated room, it was raining outside and I walked past this huge old wall that had hanging greenery.

House: It is common to dream about houses. They usually symbolize our emotional and psychological selves. All of your experiences, stages of development, and parts of your conscious and unconscious life may be represented by that house. The house may be representing issues concerning a particular dilemma in your life, or it may be more general and comprehensive. (not a bad house but in a bad neighbourhood. I did feel threathened yesterday by a negative comment on lightworkers, after all the world is a nuts place and some people can go crazy and try and eventually hurt you. But I know that if I worry about it it is real to me, so I need to not give it though I think and focus on the love in my life)
(Threat of)Violence: Research shows that most dreams are unpleasant. Violent dreams are relatively common and may be a reflection of the confusion and conflict that the dreamer experiences in daily life. Dreams with violent themes suggest that the dreamer has unconscious negative emotions such as fear, anxiety, and anger. If you are not dealing with these feeling consciously, your dreams are compensating and bringing into awareness the need for honest reflection and emotional balance in daily life. (Well-- this goes well with the insight above, obviously my dream is telling me that this comment still bothered me before going to bed and that it is now useless to Fear it.)
Sewage: May represent the flow of unconscious energy or emotion that you have tried to suppress. (That would make sense - I'm trying to suppress the emotion of fear instead of truly dealing with it. Oh, like it is honest to god about women we have to talk it out)
Door: Doors are passageways and in our dreams that is their symbolism. Going through a door may represent going from one state of consciousness to another, or from one inner plane to another. Locked or closed doors may represent an obstacle or opportunities that are not currently available to you. (I left away from the Fear, but it's still knocking on the door making me feel uneasy even though it is not in the same space as me)

AUTUMN COLOR IN FINLAND - BEAUTIFUL PHOTOS!

It is a Beautiful Autumn Day in Helsinki!

Tto prove to you I am not lying - here are 13 photographs from this afternoon.

To click these is to open a bigger picture, big enough to use as a wallpaper.

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

POEM OF LIFE AND DEATH BY RUMI

Dying Heart by NiinaC

"I died as a mineral and became a plant,
I died as plant and rose to animal,
I died as animal and I was Man.
Why should I fear? When was I less by dying?
Yet once more I shall die as Man, to soar
With angels bless'd; but even from angelhood
I must pass on: all except God doth perish.
When I have sacrificed my angel-soul,
I shall become what no mind e'er conceived.
Oh, let me not exist! for Non-existence
Proclaims in organ tones,
To Him we shall return."
~ Rumi

FLOWER PETALS IN BACKLIGHT

Gray and Pink Fragility

Flower Petals reaching up towards the sky for Sunlight

These and more @ http://www.flickr.com/photos/niinac/

NIINA PHOTOGRAPHS AGAIN

Purple Hearts

It's an Uphill Climb

Budding Life

Fire & Water Unite

These and More @  http://www.flickr.com/photos/niinac/

PHOTOGRAPHER IN ME IS OUT

Blossoming Tree #1

 

Blossoming Tree #2

 

Blossoming Tree #3

 

 On my way back from work there is this gorgeous tree and it just looked so beautiful that I had to take more snaps of it. 

You can find these and more at http://www.flickr.com/photos/niinac/

 

 

EXISTENCE IN A FLOWER

There is nothing quite so beautiful than truly seeing a flower, to be captured by it's silence, beauty, joy. To stand in front of it and feel the energy flow between the viewers. To a flower you are just as unique, your hair catching the sunlight, the curve of your lips as you smile, the color of your eyes the reflexion of it's self in them - joy and beauty seeing itself. You are as beautiful, unique, fragile as a flower, and just like a flower you Exist to Be.
The flower doesn't kid itself with the mundane routines of life - it just IS.

Just BE.

Be Beauty - Be Light - Be Joy!

Just Exist to Be.

NUTRITION AND SPIRITUALITY

 Yes - if you come here regularly you probably noticed I was gone for few weeks.
Summer literally decended on Finland with a WhaM! Suddenly it was sunny, super warm and everything green emerged from the buds. I took up exercising again and time seemed to fly.

All this light brings out so much joy in people - there is laughing now and happy silence when you just lift your face to appresiate the sun and it's light and warmth.

My birthday went by, I received my personal copy of  A Course In Miracles which I am deliriously happy about - and so many warm, happy thoughts from people who wished me happy birthday. :)
I also got a HUGE bouquet of white lilys that now dominate my kitchen with an aura of peace and angelic joy.

This loosing weight business had me confused about it's spiritual origen for a while until I got what it meant for me. See spiritually speaking I am at a Great place right now in such a peace that I am finally okay with absolutely everything - but for years there has been this tug-a-war with my body.
I believe now that this is it, the final adjustment to my diet* (*way of living through nutrition with excercise) then last dropping of the pounds so that my Body can be as Healthy as my Spirit. :) Before my urge to loose the last stubborn 20lbs I was at a place where my diet changed dramatically, I cut of all meat, except for fish for now, and suddenly dropped of all alcohol (some of you know how much I enjoy wine with a good meal) which seemed to just irk at my spirituality.

These changes came before, along with a sudden desire to eat only to fuel my body, and make the food with total love and peace and dedication. This was bit shocking for a former emotional eater, who used food to fuel all kinds of thing besides the physical body. Since I started reading A Course In Miracles I finally had my values straighten - I was reminded that it is all Love, it comes from it and it is the greatest mean to forgiveness of one's self first and then others.

 (My Photograph will open up in Wallpaper size if you click it)

I did a TON of Forgiving! I forgave myself for thoughts of inadqusy, thoughts of anger or hurt, thoughst of self hate. I forgave everyperson who had every offended me from first grade, through upper classes where I was bullied A Lot for being smidge too different, and I forgave appsenses and hurtful glaces. Now my days come with forgiving on daily basis, I notice myself in hurt state and forgive myself for feeling this illusion of emotion and I forgive the person who I projected having hurted me. (Oh I could go on and on about Projecting - that evil thing! ;) ) Somewhere here amist forgiveness stint I forgave myself for taking my body to unbalance and started to recover.

I was very confused these few weeks because I was focused on loosing weight and Living Healthy AND Spirituality, instead of just one. This confused me because I have always been a person who gives a 100% focus one thing at a time, Spirituality, then dumb that to diet then dumb that for photography and so on and so on... Until Now! NOW it's Diet and Spirituality and I can still give 100% for both, which means I have finally found My Spirituality, I have found my Path, my Journey - not too bad for my 28th year of existing.

CANARY ISLAND PHOTOS

Village in fataga had one side of the valley wall covered with these used to be inhabited caves.

Close-up of the caves.

Gorgeous ocean - smashing waves.

Stone circle.

Monarch butterfly.

SNOWY HELSINKI

Snow Covered III
Originally uploaded by Niina ♥ C.

The city of Helsinki (Finland) is covered in snow! This winter has been the best, snow covered event in years.
We had white christmas, white new year and white January.

DHARMA

"This Universal Force is called Dharma in Sanskrit. The path of action is summed up in a phrase: Karma gives way to Dharma. In other words, personal attachment to your own actions is turned to nonattachment through performing god's actions."

-Deepak Chopra "The Book of Secrets"

Remember that World is projection of our consciousness - You are not in the World - You Are the World. You are god.

DAY 8 - RED EARTH WAVESPELL

From: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/Wave_Red_Earth.html

Day 8 (Jan 2): How do I resonate harmoniously with the new Golden Octave? (the new energy on earth)

Yellow Seed Qualities: Seed, self-germination, creation, flowering, power of growth, seeding manifestation, fertile ground, gestation, opening, erupting possibilities, awareness.

Yellow Seed is the ordered pattern of growth. You and your life are the fertile soil, and the mystery blooms within you through the power of your intention or seed thoughts. Just as a seed contains the hologram of its completion, the process of manifestation follows a natural order. In this gestation process, your intention is quickened by Spirit. The charged seed, your true desire or vision, becomes the focus for germination.

What can you open that will support receptivity and assist the germination of your seed intentions? Envision the seed receiving the invitation to grow in the openness of your world. Viscerally feel the possibility of your heart's dream emerging. Your true desires and dreams contain an innate intelligence that can break through even the rigidity of fixed expectations. Planting a new seed, even in the hard soil of old belief systems, can bring unexpected magic and growth.

Be willing to break open the constraining shells of past patterns, the shackles of belief structures. Call forth your creative involvement with life. This involvement frees and awakens the powerful energy of the life force, shifting your perceptions and experience, catalyzing the manifestation of your dreams. Participate spontaneously in your growth, unrestricted by the illusion of old structures that once provided safety. Move forward into the light of new possibilities.

Tropism is the tendency to respond or move toward something by natural attraction. Through a code inherent within, a sprouted seed grows toward the light and a sunflower follows the Sun. In like manner, you respond to the light of your Essence Self, opening naturally to the fulfillment of your true nature. Through your own process of living and learning, you generate and plant various intentions and desires. As your natural growth pattern is catalyzed and awakened, your truth germinates in wisdom, emerging into the light in which all seeds flourish. Thus, as you plant your own truth, more truth comes to light. In this way, you create ever more fertile ground in which to explore and express all that you are.

DAY 4 - RED EARTH WAVESPELL

From: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/Wave_Red_Earth.html

Day 4 (Dec 29): What form will my spiritual journey take?

Yellow Sun Qualities: Illumination, fire, cosmic/christ consciousness, bliss, union, wholeness, unconditional love, crown chakra, ascension, solar mastery, language of light, ecstasy, limitless bliss, enlightenment, universal fire.

Discover the simple secret encoded in Yellow Sun's star-glyph: you are unconditional love, the stone of indestructible liberation. Radiate that knowing in all your thoughts and actions. Love all of creation. Join the dance of light, the fundamental constant of nature, and shine forth the clarity of your true essence. There is great power in simply identifying with the light: "As above, so below." You are in God, and God is in you.

As you express unconditional love, you become more than you previously perceived yourself to be. You become illumined, the full manifestation of your divinity. In the embrace of your humanity, accept yourself and others unconditionally. Magnify your full presence. Yellow Sun will come in myriad forms to assist you. Be limitless. Accept and understand the nature of judgement, fear, light and dark within yourself and others. Love and accept yourself and others as you are, freed from previous boundaries. You are the dawning of the solar age.

As you move toward your core of light, you will find a clear-light awareness that is innately innocent. In this place, the mind is restored to it's original state of receptivity. Clarity and freedom become expressions of being, and bliss becomes the body. At this core of light, a new reality is born. From the union of the divine masculine and feminine is birthed the solar androgyny of cosmic consciousness.

Open your heart as a flower to the Sun, and become the same love that holds universes together!

JANUARY

January 2010 Wallpaper
Originally uploaded by Niina ♥ C.

I decided to challenge myself a little and keep up with months in 2010. January is done and next month it'll be february. I'll try take really good pictures so they won't go boring. :)

DREAM --> SPIRITUALITY

I suggest that you keep a journal during these 13 days. Start your day by writing down any dreams you have and interpreting them the best you can. Use association and lookup keywords...

Day 2's Night - Dream

I was living with my aunt, M-L, in an old finnish style wooden house, when her neightbour came and took two little bowls and left. We got them back and she was furious - as were we as she didn't ask she just took them. We locked ourselves in this house with her son in there too (son wasn't my rl cousin). Finally after 3 weeks of that crazy lady going about outside the house, my aunt went out, and I did too to walk Orion with my husband - there was a man on our road with a chainsaw about to cut trees, and he was about to egnite the saw when Orion was between his legs. I yelled - and the guy yelled - at my husband to pull him out of there. Walked some more and then he asked me what the borders of Laajasalo are, because he's staying at a hotel there. I promised to draw it intoa map for him.
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I felt very agited the first part of the dream - it was very confusing, so I'm taking my "Big Book of Dreams" out and TRY make sense of it.

Bowls / vessels /dishes = Celebration... Portray the state of the soul (mine were whole, there was 4 in total and I was very protective of them), as how they are old new, broken, whole... (the lady tried to take the two new ones but not the two old ones I had in my arms - perhaps this is about my last two life cycles???)
House = Portrays the state of your life, kitchen means warmth and safety... (old wooden house, old but in good shape - I spend the whole time in the kitchen)
Lock = Lockling things means you don't want to show your true self to anyone. You don't want them to know your subcontious world. (true, I only speak of my spirituality to the people who express interest first - I won't push it to your face but I won't show it either unless you express interest - even though I always live with it)
Border = You have unnessiceraly prohibited your freedom wither moving, saying or rights.

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In short I protect myself too much, when it comes to my spirituality, I have for the past two lives I've had, I've prohibited so much because of the fear people will consider me crazy, stupid or nuts because of my own personal Truth.
And it has been unnessicery - which is true, there are no witch trials anymore... I should be fine and not lock myself up in to my own soft, warm and fuzzy little world.
I need the strenght to stand proud with myself - it's the only way to unite the two sides of myself I've been trying to work to unite for years.

GLASS CANDY

Candy Gal
Originally uploaded by Niina ♥ C.

New photo from yours truly.

NEW YEAR - LAST YEAR

Tracy Gendron from *~Light Center~* on Facebook send the best NEW YEAR post I've gotten this year, so here follows - I've bolded some of the high lights for me, though it all rings true.

I have been thinking a lot about 2010's new-to-us vibration and am thinking it would be a wonderful thing to follow the Red Earth Wavespell that started today (Red Magnetic Earth - Day 1 - Dec 26, 2009 - How do I call forth the resonance of my true vibration within the context of the new energy available in 2010?) and carries on through to the New Year's Day energy (Blue Resonant Night) to the final 13th day: Red Cosmic Moon on Jan 7, 2010.

To me, this 13 day Wavespell, is the bridge that carries us into the New Beginnings that the 2010 vibration embodies - so I'll be riding it and paying attention and I hope that many of you will join me! I just read through some of the key days (first, 7th for New Year's Day and the last day) and, wow, it sounds reeeeally exciting you guys!

Numerologically, 2010 is significant because we start a new cycle with the '10' energy. In 2009 we did a lot of clearing, wouldn't you say? I know I did! Being the last number in the cycle (9) - energy was available to wrap up the old, clear out shadow stuff, limiting beliefs, restrictive situations and basically do some house-cleaning on a emotional-mental level. Of course, any house-cleaning on the physical bodily level helps to clear out the old to make room for the new, too! I found myself quite sick for much of 2009 with strange mystery illnesses but my mental/emotional self mirrored this physical state, too. I found myself quite angry and impatient and having trouble in particular relationships...it felt like all this old gunk that had accumulated emotionally was being activated so it could come to the surface, I could take a look and deal with it (instead of thinking: oooh I'm never angry!) and then, voila, clear it out forever, yay! I ended my year with an amazing Master Cleanse that put me back in perfect health - and I'm planning on starting another one with my mom on January 1st just because it's the only time we can do it together. If any of y'all are interested in that we can discuss it over on the MC discussion thread.

(Blogger's Note: I ended my year with Flu, it was almost like a last cleanse before New Year. My flu ended on the 26th - I take that as a sign)

SO - NEW is where we're headed. In fact, to me, it feels like I am completely new myself....all those beliefs I had about myself have been sloughed off and I'm feeling free and unencumbered - ready to co-create this next new phase from a clear, fresh-eyed place. Anyone else feeling this way?

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... as we approach 2010 and have been open, once again, to creating something absolutely new in my life. I encourage you all to plug in to whatever source or tool that helps to guide you (dreams, meditation, writing, synchronicities) to let the energies know that you are up for creating something stunningly new and amazing in your life and that you'll pay attention to all the signs and signals you receive.

Remember 10 energy is: Intuition, Fortune, Luck, A turn for the better, New Beginnings. We have the 0 (divine power) working through the 1 (mars) to bring about a burst of new energy that brings about new starts and a change in fortune. The Wheel of Fortune (card #10) is ruled by Jupiter

Because 2010 reduces to a 3 it's good to keep in mind that 3 energy is available to you too: Growth, Travel, Self-Expression. The Empress (card #3) is ruled by Jupiter and Venus.

Lots of Jupiter energy available in 2010 which is fantastic for growth, expansion, optimism, luck and benevolence. Ahhhh I just checked to see what Jupiter is actually doing in 2010 and I see that on New Year's Day Jupiter is conjunct Neptune (significant spot! - dreaming big, benevolent, idealistic feelings of universal love...) and then at the end of January Jupiter moves into Pisces (it's just spent the last year in Aquarius) which means that at some point in 2010 Jupiter will conjoin Uranus (expect the unexpected) in Pisces....that brings Benevolent Changes, big surprises...great to catapult you into a brand new 10 cycle!

So, with Jupiter in Pisces - people with planets in the water and earth signs will be feeling verrrrry positive and open to having the Universe shower you with blessings!

(Blogger's Note: I'm a Taurus so as an earth sign I'll be right up there with the positive)

If you want to follow along with the wavespell that will bridge us into 2010 go here: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/Wave_Red_Earth.html We can think of the 13 day Wavespell as a concentration of the energies and ideas and feelings and manifestations for 2010 and the whole new cycle that starts in 2010.

To briefly sum up - it's like in order to reap all the benefits we need to first Ground, center and be present Now through Red Earth energy.....then on New Year's Day the vibration is: Blue Resonant Night which gives us an idea of what 2010 is about for Dreamspell......Being Conscious Dreamers to 'dream a different reality into being'! Wow - that is exciting! New Beginnings individually and collectively, of course, with our conscious-dreaming!

Theme for 2010: "In becoming a conscious dreamer, you can assist in literally creating a new reality for yourself, as well as constributing to the larger dream that is emerging. By focusing on this creation, your thoughts and intentions are projected at superluminal speeds across the crystal grid network that encompasses universes. This energetic field seeds, supports, and empowers the creation of an unfolding reality."

And, the final day 13th where you surrender to the perfection of the larger pattern of 2010 is with Red Moon, the cosmic seed of awakened awareness. MMM mmm! Surrendering to remembering ALL that you are. We are all Masters.
I wish you all a magical, exciting, new 2010 filled with wonderful surprises you've never dreamed of (but feel familiar) that catapult you into our beautiful World that is already Heaven on Earth. It already exists. Let's expand it together...

In Lak'esh,
Tracey
White Crystal Mirror

Explains why I came back to my blog here yesterday - of all days! - and why I am so very drawn to my tarot deck this morning, it's time to break out the Crowley back and take a good look at myself.

IT'S BEEN TOO LONG

It's really been too long since my last post, so here I am.
I haven't seriously been here since last x-mas, even though there are few posts this year.

Why the break? Well, I guess I've been happy. Really. :) I seem to so call nest when I'm happy. But let's look back...
I wrote a 50 000 word novel in November - which I haven't edited yet.
I went back to my healthy eating plan and exersice - until back and flu interrupted.
Summer was great I visited Porvoo and Kuhmo - this also led to the many uploads to my FLICKR.
I recently got back my photo-bug and now I'm photoshopping away after snapping pictures.


Here's "Smiling Tea" From flickr.com/niinac

Something very sad happened too, my grandmother passed away - it was during surgery so the death wasn't painful, which I'm very happy about - what I'm not happy about it that my father informed me a day later instead of the same day, I could have tried to make the passege as easy as possible for her.
The funeral was filled with tears, ofcourse I'm sad to lose a HUGE part of my childhood memories and their occupant but then again, we all die. Tao states: The third treasure is humility, to know that you have come from nothing and that you return to nothing. It's soothing, and eases the pain - why should I not be happy and proud of the soul journey she did, I'm sure she's happier now, wiser and at ease.

With this said, I gave you the main points of my year - the rest of it was work at the kindergarden and daily life with down and lows AND tons and tons of books - Kaari Utrio - J.D.Robb - Lincoln Child - Charlaine Harris and some Twilight.

Much love to you all!