"PLAN" VOLUNTEER, APPLE PIE, HEATWAVE, WINDCHIMES...

Apple pie is in the oven, windchimes are singing in the kitchen, balcony is full of brightly colored flowers, I should attempt to make Greek Salad but I seem to have trouble keeping my eyes open. This ehec-virus is the solution to the swine flu pandemic bombing at the box office, hydration is the key. Is +30'C too much for Finland, we live in the North we can't handle heats like this, two years of the same first super cold heavy snowed winters followed by heatwave summers two in a row of those maybe it has something to do with the activity of then sun, global warming, highten seasons, change.

I joined Plan Finland today, became a volunteer, will be teaching english to Plan ambassadors, will be translating and interpreting, will be teaching how to act around children, it's part of my purpose, my life long purpose as a kindergarden teacher, and humanbeing to help children, to raise better children who have opportunities they didn't even knew they were entitled to as humans. Will get a t-shirt as well 'because i'm a girl' campaign.

Just needed to get some thoughts out. :)

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

CME AND MY SUN-MON INSIGHT

"Artwork by Daniel B. Holeman"

As there was a great Coronal Mass Ejection from the Sun three days ago, I thought I'd post my experiences from yesterday, as yesterday should have been the peak day of the "download". 
Why do I say download? There are many people, but in grand scale few, who study the sun and its solar maximum and minimum cycles and see what historical events correlate with those. Some men have come to believe ( perhaps you'll find their names here ) that when the Sun releases particles during CME and flares that effect our body, changing the so called settings in us.

Cosmic rays are high-energy particles from deep space; they penetrate metal, plastic, flesh and bone. Astronauts exposed to cosmic rays develop an increased risk of cancer, cataracts and other maladies. Ironically, solar explosions, which produce their own deadly radiation, sweep away the even deadlier cosmic rays. As flares subside, cosmic rays intensify - yin, yang. ~http://niinac.blogspot.com/2010/12/solar-maximum-effects-2012-solar.html

But also:

But there is scientific evidence that the increase in the solar activity could give a significant boost to human consciousness and to spiritual evolution. It could open the door to a new era, argue some scientists.
This is because we, human beings, constantly generate electromagnetic fields around us depending on the thoughts and feelings we have. And these fields in turn, are constantly interacting with many other electric and magnetic fields on the planet earth, in the solar system and in universe. In as far as solar activity impacts on electric and magnetic fields that affect us every day, the sun interacts directly with our DNA and stimulates changes in biosynthesis in cells. ~http://niinac.blogspot.com/2010/12/solar-maximum-effects-2012-solar.html

So let's move on to yesterday, Monday.

Yesterday was the day that the effects of the Saturday’s CME (coronal mass ejection) were felt in the electromagnetic field of earth, and us, the people. Of course thanks to our planet's magnetic field we never get the full blast of the update but share it planet earth.

On Sunday I had a wonderful day of realizing that my ego was on my spiritual path with me, blocking me subtly from enjoying the Light with trying to educating myself on the information of spirituality. ( the entry HERE )
What I decided on Sunday was to make Monday a Day of Light - not just Monday but the rest of my life. The thing I was worried about was what work would be like when my focus was Light, I decided I won't worry about it as I had intuitive knowledge it would be absolutely perfect for my work, but still my ego was trying to worry me with image of me having to quit my job to enjoy the Light. Well-- it just happens Monday was 1-0 for Niina. ;)

I woke up, lying in bed I opened my eyes and chose that today was going to be light filled, the most blissful, happiest day where I give the universe the open field to manifest through me. On a side note I said the same thing this morning. My day that followed was amazing, the most calm, serene, happy one - usually I am at least twice or thrice stressed when the children at work get into arguments and screaming - it seemed my attitude was rubbing off on them.

I noticed how I was fully present in all the actions I did, with the child I was with. It seemed a fully different experience from last week. I do not know how much of this has to do with the CME but I am not so proud to say I give it no credit of Sunday and Monday and the change at the core of me.

The Universe, it's planets and stars are more mysterious than we give them credit for - just because we can see them and guess upon them doesn't mean all is known and understood about them, ask that of any scientist and they'll agree. This existence of ours... much more amazing than meets the 15% usage capability of our brain.

What happened to you on Sunday-Monday?

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

ASTROLOGICAL JUNE 1ST - JULY 1ST HAS THREE ECLIPSES!

I received a subscriped newsletter from Michelle Karén, Michelle Karén is M.A.( Master of Arts ), D.F.Astrol.S ( Diploma of the Faculty of Astrological Studies ) an Astrologer and author of Astrology For Enlightenment - the newsletter informed of three Spiritually impostant days to come, first as close as this Wednesday as we experience a Solar Eclipse.

Here are the Details from that Newsletter!

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The 3 upcoming eclipses in June and July 2011
An eclipse always signifies a major turning point in our lives. Depending on where it falls in our natal chart ( map of the heavens for the exact date, time and place of our birth ), irrevocable shifts happen, rerouting us and placing us on better tracks for our highest evolution to occur. Within a month of the actual date of the eclipse, we shall be clear on what changed. We should always be careful on eclipse days as to what we say and how we say it, as our words and thoughts could lead to rapid manifestations.

Usually eclipses happen in twos: a lunar (Full Moon) and a solar (New Moon). It is extremely rare to find 3 eclipses back to back, as we shall be experiencing between June 1 and July 1st.

On Wednesday June 1 at 2:30 PM PDT (CA time), the Solar Eclipse will occur in Gemini (11º02’).
This special New Moon is represented in the Sabian Symbols by the following image: “A Negro girl fights for her independence in the city”. This eclipse helps us free ourselves from the ghosts of our past. It offers us the chance to assert our mastery. We are likely to receive long overdue rewards for past efforts.
The astrological chart of this eclipse shows that we shall become clearer on what makes us feel nurtured and  how we can become more grounded in our private lives. We could feel the need to move or rearrange our living circumstances. If repairs are needed in our home, it could be a good idea to ask first for an estimate as the costs could end up being a lot more than expected.
We could also deepen our understanding of our family links and get insights into our parallel lives and why we chose the parents we have. This could lead to a greater understanding of our fears, insecurities and a chance to clear what is standing in the way of us becoming all that we are in our divinity.
Speaking good words and thinking caring thoughts create the positive energy enabling us to retrieve ancient wisdoms carried over from other lifetimes.
There could be more harmony in our finances. We could be happily surprised by an income we didn’t expect anymore or a “lucky” break. The more we focus on following our intuition and doing what we love, the more easily money will be magnetized to us in ways that may seem quite mysterious.  We could literally see it appear as we need it.
The unexpected is likely to occur also in a love relationship. Either a sudden break-up or an unusual coming together. A love could become a friendship. A friendship could switch to love. A long lost love could re-emerge. The survival of an existing relationship will depend largely on how flexible we and our partner are towards each other’s dreams. If we can truly respect each other’s independence and uniqueness, as well as balance our needs for freedom with intimacy, a whole new level of relationship may be experienced that is extremely liberating.
This eclipse also helps us go deeper into our subconscious. We could have premonitory dreams, and profound visions.  This eclipse builds a bridge between the old and the new. As we keep what still works and integrate new ways of walking our path, an exciting balance is reached.
 

On Wednesday June 15, at 1:14 PM PDT, the Lunar Eclipse (Full Moon) will occur at 24º23’ Sagittarius.
This degree is symbolized by “A chubby boy on a hobby-horse”. This points to powers we know we can experience in the future by anticipating them now. As we create the emotion of what we want as having already received it, it will manifest.
This eclipse stresses the importance of developing our creativity as well as open communication with a person we cherish.
There could be a major earthquake or volcano eruption. An important clearing away of the old is taking place both literally and symbolically.
A new light could be shed on our genealogical tree and/or parallel lives. We could discover secrets about our lineage that help us understand more deeply our roots and the origin of certain emotional reactions we have. A great eclipse to clear old fears and insecurities.
We could find that, as we tap into our inner resources and focus on what we truly love and are skilled at, our finances improve dramatically.
This eclipse asks us to open to new cultures, languages, countries. We may be called to travel and as we do, learn things and meet new friends who expand our horizons in magnificent ways.
Subtle changes are occurring at a cellular level in our bodies. We could become very sensitive to atmospheres and naturally stay away from denser foods, preferring to eat less, more high frequency, organic, raw fruit and vegetables. We are likely to be drawn to exercise that is in harmony with the wisdom of our bodies.
We stand in our power, very aware of our truth, very clear with regard to our priorities. A time to focus on what is important to us and with a breath of kindness, brush the rest away...
   

On Friday July 1st at 1:54 AM PDT, the Solar Eclipse (New Moon) will be at 9º12’ Cancer.
The Sabian Symbol for this degree is “A large diamond in the first stages of the cutting process”. As we arduously strive to perfection, we begin to fully incarnate our ideal.
Issues around home and security could surface. We may be called to move or redecorate our home. We may want it to be a place of intellectual and spiritual stimulation, inviting people over whose minds we admire and respect.
We are likely to be more serious, more focused and practical  in our careers. Our ambitions are clear. We meet our duties with a sense of responsibility.  We could either receive a promotion or become more committed to reaching our goals. We are not afraid to work long hours to fulfill our obligations.
A long distance trip to a country we feel a deep inner connection to, could prove life-changing, exposing us to sages and a whole new understanding of our place in the universe.
We are attracted to like-spirited friends who inspire us to greater dreams.
We become quite dynamically involved in creating the financial abundance we need through parallel/complementary activities requiring both movement and active communication.
Sudden insights could come through meditation or dreams that reveal our inner landscape in a blinding light. A chance to break free from the past and own deeper aspects of our subconscious that were previously hidden or unavailable.
Our renewed faith in life, trust in ourselves open magical doors. As we approach life with great enthusiasm and an open spirit, the seemingly impossible, becomes possible.
   

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Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

BIGGEST SOLAR FLARE IN YEARS ON US NOW 17TH - 18TH OF FEB

"After the initial blast of radiation accompanying the coronal mass ejection (CME) - the first of its magnitude to occur in the new solar cycle of activity - a huge cloud of charged particles is headed toward Earth and is expected likely to arrive on Feb. 17-18."
Read more...

Why are Solar Flares important Spiritually? Find out Here.

More dialogue @ http://lightworkers.org/blog/125102/biggest-solar-flare-years-us-now-17th-18th-feb

SOLAR MAXIMUM EFFECTS & 2012 SOLAR MAXIMUM

First what is Solar Maximum?

Solar Maximum or "solar max" is the period of greatest solar activity in the solar cycle of the sun. During solar maximum, sunspots appear. A solar maximum is the period when the sun's magnetic field lines are the most distorted due to the magnetic field on the solar equator rotating at a slightly faster pace than at the solar poles. The solar cycle takes an average of about 11 years to go from one solar maximum to the next with an observed variation in duration of 9 to 14 years for any given solar cycle. [ wikipedia ]

What are sunspots?

They are caused by intense magnetic activity, although they are at temperatures of roughly 2,727–4,227 °C, the contrast with the surrounding material leaves them clearly visible as dark spots.
Sunspot populations quickly rise and more slowly fall on an irregular cycle of 11 years, although significant variations in the number of sunspots attending the 11-year period are known over longer spans of time. For example, from 1900 to the 1960s the solar maxima trend of sunspot count has been upward; from the 1960s to the present, it has diminished somewhat. Over the last decades the Sun has had a markedly high average level of sunspot activity; it was last similarly active over 8,000 years ago. [ wikipedia ]

18-25 Cycles of Solar Maximums :: 2012 matches 1950's :: Reference for spiritual view look at 1960-1970's and the Hippie Movement ( 69'Woodstock and 70's hippie integration to mainstream ) that made Eastern Traditions settling in the west possible.

In red, David Hathaway's predictions for the next two solar cycles and, in pink, Mausumi Dikpati's prediction for cycle 24.
On the other hand, they will have to worry more about cosmic rays. Cosmic rays are high-energy particles from deep space; they penetrate metal, plastic, flesh and bone. Astronauts exposed to cosmic rays develop an increased risk of cancer, cataracts and other maladies. Ironically, solar explosions, which produce their own deadly radiation, sweep away the even deadlier cosmic rays. As flares subside, cosmic rays intensify—yin, yang.Hathaway's prediction should not be confused with another recent forecast: A team led by physicist Mausumi Dikpata of NCAR has predicted that Cycle 24, peaking in 2011 or 2012, will be intense. Hathaway agrees: "Cycle 24 will be strong. Cycle 25 will be weak. Both of these predictions are based on the observed behavior of the conveyor belt." [ Nasa ]

What do sunspots do exactly?

In our origins were are as much the space between atoms or protons and electrons. We are 99.9999% space between small pieces of matter. Doesn't seem like it in these tense material bodies we are in... but you have to look at the infinite  way we are constructed - the smallest thing se can dected is still not the smallest thing we know about - and in the end we are creative energy ( that is why you feel so good when you create, and that is why master pieces are created in creation buzz and not in slumber ).
The picture on the right, remove "the lines" and what do you have? Space, and we are created with these tiny atoms.
Here is article with a very good view on why there magnetic solar sunspots effect us, our bodies and our consciouness.
All you have to do is recall what magnetism does from one of your middle school physics classes. :)
"All human and animal bodies are electromagnetic in nature and this fact is closely allied to the chemical balance of the body which can be in either a healthy or an unhealthy state. It is now known scientifically that a healthy body contains fluids that are slightly alkaline and that an unhealthy body is acidic." ~ Magnetic Therapy: How and why magnets effect the body

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This Article is based mainly on Dr Dieter Broers' book: rEvolution 2012:
Germany’s biggest newspaper, BILD, reported on Sunday about the preparations NASA is making to monitor the higher levels of solar activity expected in the next few years, predicted to reach a maximum  in 2012.
http://www.bild.de/BILD/news/2010/06/07/nasa-warnt-vor-sonnenstuermen/droht-der-blackout-auf-erde.html

The subject of the sun, its increased activity and its possible impact on us is finally entering the mainstream media also in Europe. BILD emphasises the potential disruption that a gigantic solar storm could cause.
It describes a “horror scenario” of “silence, darkness, chaos” as electricity grids, mobile phones, GPS navigation systems, TV and radio cease to function. But there is scientific evidence that the increase in the solar activity could give a significant boost to human consciousness and to spiritual evolution. It could open the door to a new era, argue some scientists.
This is because we, human beings, constantly generate electromagnetic fields around us depending on the thoughts and feelings we have. And these fields in turn, are constantly interacting with many other electric and magnetic fields on the planet earth, in the solar system and in universe. In as far as solar activity impacts on electric and magnetic fields that affect us every day, the sun interacts directly with our DNA and stimulates changes in biosynthesis in cells.

Austrian scientist Dr Dieter Broers in his book "(r)evolution 2012" gives an example of just how powerful an impact eletrostatic fields can have. He writes that Ciba Geigy applied for a patent that “used the short-term application of electrostatic fields to get useful and desirable qualities of fish.” Fish that were put in these electrostatic fields bred at 100% to 300% higher rate than the control fish, the scientists found. Also, fish put in electrostatic fields showed more vitality and grew up more quickly. They also had a much higher survival rate. Broers argues that the human beings could experience the same push when we are exposed to a gigantic increase in the electrostatic field around us due to the upcoming solar storms, reaching their maximum in 2012.
Studies have shown a connection between specific electrostatic fields and increases in genetic changes in human beings. Electromagnetic fields accelerate the transcription rate in biological material and so promote mutations. The increased solar activity could activate our DNA, help us develop a 12 strand DNA, and so turn us into a kind of “super human beings“, argues Broer.

Also, Professor Herbert L König, H. Fröhlich and Alexander Pressman among others have presented evidence that electromagnetic fields - which regulate and steer many processes necessary for living beings - have played a decisive role in evolution. Studies have also linked human behaviour, wars, revolutions, riots to years of increased solar activity. ( see the second image above ) But high levels of sun activity have also been linked to great civilisations such as the Maya civilisation. The Maya calendar like the Egyptian and ancient Indian recognised that cosmic energies influence consciousness. It ends on December 21st, 2012 when the December solstice sun will be aligned with the Galactic equator and a time point when we, humans, can expect a huge burst of energy. This has sparked speculation that human consciousness might end. However, Broers argues human consciousness will undergo a fundamental change as we reach a pinnacle in a process of development that has been taking many thousands of years.
A significant amount of cosmic energy could break through in 2012, and reconfigure our DNA, our consciousness and our perception of time to shift us into a new era of superconsciousness. Broers says that humans could experience a collective awakening promoted by the sun's activity and the increasing intensity of the electrostatic fields we move in. In Christianity, there are parallels to the Maya's idea in the discussion of the "End Days" and the "Second Coming of Christ" or of the Christ energy. There are many parables in the Gospels which compare the development of human consciousness to the natural process of growth of plants: it requires a certain amount of time for plants and human consciousness to develop fully before they are ripe for the "harvest". Perhaps Zbigniew Brzezinski is indirectly testifying to this growth in consciousness when he recently talked at a CFR meeting in Canada about the mass awakening occurring around the globe today.

( The text in grey is where the article takes bit of a nose dive to such matters as new world order and conspiracy theories - I personally do not believe in them, but read if you want or skip the grey to stay positive )

Of course, for Brzezinski as a Bilderberg and New World Order Globalist, this awakening is a frightening prospect.

The growth in consciousness is resulting in the hidden shadow government structures coming into the light.

Spanish mainstream media as well as Germany's BILD, Spiegel and the UK Times, Guardian and Independent have reported for the first time ever on the Bilderberg conference in Spain this year.

Millions more people will now hear about this secretive group - and they will start doing the research.

For the first time in recent history, large numbers of people will be able to understand how this black network operates to create financial crises, false pandemics and wars for their power and profit.

Because these people are seeking to cling to their power and to find ways to continue to enslave humanity, a period of conflict and upheaval is inevitable.

It may seem difficult today to image that the powerful structures of the financial oligarchyy, oil companies and EU, UN, IMF could be swept away suddenly and with the help of a wave of new consciousness buoyed by background energy which is controlled by the sun – or the universal creative intelligence behind the sun.

But apparently invincible empires such as the Roman Empire crumbled quickly.

The fear-based, low frequency energies of the Bilderberg/New World Order are simply not compatible with the higher energies that the earth is increasingly vibrating too, and at some point, they will buckle under the pressures of their new environment.

The collapse of th New World Order political and economic structures might create upheaval and disorientation, not least, because so many people’s jobs and lives and worldviews are embedded in these structures.

But the instability could also prove to be a once-in-a-lifetime chance to break free from these dark and deadening structures that have caused so much suffering.

Whatever happens in the next months, we should try to move to be in a place of hope.

Our DNA transmits frequencies and receives frequencies. In a state of high energy and hope, we are attuned with, and vibrate in harmony with, the core energies of the universe - we are one with the "Christ energy" to put it another way.  At death, our energy fields just separate as modern scientists put it.

The collapse of the One World Government or New World Order is inevitable, and could come much sooner than we think - and the time may have come to prepare for the much bigger challenge of adapting to a new era. Instead of fearing this tumultuous transition, we can see it as a unique opportunity for us to fulfil our potential and our life purpose in a relatively short time. The spiritual battle against the New World Order is of scale that allows us to play great roles, and so increase our own positive energy exponentially – and perhaps just on time to make it accross the energy threshold which may determine which systems will survive and which will go under in 2012.

This new blog aims to explore developments in science related to 2012, to focus on the bigger picture -- far beyond pandemics, financial crashes, wars and the new world order - and to uncover the paths in spirituality that might help us move forward rapidly in our consciousness in an adventure of unparalled excitement and opportunity. Check it out: http://2012energy.blogspot.com/

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Effects of sunspots?
We cannot be 100% sure - that is how life works, but keeping our eyes open and detecting shift that are in accordance with solar activity can give us a nice comparative field. At SolarCycle24 you can observe the Solar activity ( spikes of M or X class are high ).
And if you want to know more about the past insident on Solar Maximums click here for few PDF.pages:
http://www.michaelmandeville.com/earthmonitor/cosmos/solarwind/Sunspot%20Cycles%20&%20Human%20History.pdf

In the picture below the grim past is pretty clear, I expect with the green movement and the morality movement we are moving to a Higher Conscioness Shift in 2012.

I wish I could recall my last incident better - I remember a friend showing me the sun activity for those two powerful days I had, but can't seem to find the detail, what a shame! I'd loved to have shared. But needless to say I believe the sun effects us with it's magnetic field - after all it is always about balance.

Recall a shift/event with high dozes of solar activity, I'd love to heart them!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

P.S: My husband and I had a talk about this article I found, and I think he made a great point about proof. See for me proof is both intuition and peer-previw published ina journal, for my guy it's the last mentioned one. Now it is important to trust your intuition when you read articles that don't give links to the studies and aka proof of the facts it states. And while reading an article thick with quoations and links to sources you still have to have your intuition at work.
The Aquarian Age is said to merge Spirituality and Science - cannot wait.
Science is the Sign to truth and proof, not the truth and proof itself.

SHORT STORY OF MOTHER EARTH

Today is the Full Moon - I lit a candle this morning but it infront of the window and gazed at the moon, in the middle of my quiet moment a story spread out before my eyes, the one I'm going to let you read now, a story of Mother Earth...

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TERRA

I feel pain, it is excruciating, it is far from numbing – but it is birth. I am being born, I chose this and still I wish at times that I had not chosen this existence, but I catch myself at those moments, and choose again to stay. The rocks hit me, all around me they puncture my skin, my surface, never reaching down to my core, my soul. I chose this, it is almost hard to remember, this pain has lasted so long but according to time this all started billions of years ago. At the exhale.

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Luna had my hand, her touch was soothing as we waited. Her long white silvery hair was braided to two thick braids framing both sides of her face, her icy blue eyes were serene, more serene than mine. I closed my eyes for a second, this was my destiny, today or in the millions of years to come I would do this, it was a matter of wither I would do it in the next exhale or not. Luna, her presence always sooths me. It is her talent, her energy is so nurturing that many seek her just for her presence, I am honored to call her my friend as well as my sister. I feel  - I am the opposite of her. Where she is light, white and looks fragile and ethereal, I am strong, build to withstand battles, my shoulders are broad for a woman, my body is lean and muscles tight, my hair is a deep brown, glossy and curly, my eyes are a mixture of deep greens and vivid blues, my mouth set is somewhat stubborn pout. I am more like my brother than my sister. He sits by the double doors to the council, his left leg is thrown on the armrest of the chair, he looks very casual, but anyone can feel the pulsating energy of him, he has a pull, magnetism than cannot escape even the simplest of life form. He grins, blond curls touch his jaw line his fire and flame color eyes sparkle.

‘Don’t be nervous.’ His leg bounces a little against the armrest, he seems perfectly at ease to go in front of the council. ‘You will either get it or you won’t.’ He shrugs.

‘Yes, very easy for you to say, as you have already been deemed fit for the next exhale.’ I say and immediate regret my rashness. ‘I am nervous, I should no longer be, but I am, this wait is making me nervous.’

Solar glances at his sister and something passes in that look. He then turns back to me and grins the familiar crooked smile. ‘It is fine. Breathe sister, inhale, exhale, you will be fine, nothing goes pass the council unseen. You have nothing to worry about.’

The double doors open with a clang and out steps a woman with very dark skin and flaming red hair and equally bright eyes, she smiles at me, Andromeda. She walks to me and takes my other hand, she is excited, almost cannot control herself, she is perfectly exuberant.

‘I will see you soon!’ She says, glances at my brother, but again who doesn’t, and walks past us to the Gate.

I watch her walk away, I feel a delighted peace, her peace.

‘Terra.’ The council calls me.

Luna releases my hand and lets me go first, she and Solar follow me, the double doors close behind us.

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The hall is white, no color but all color, there is twelve in the council, sitting by the table, it is made of a giant slab crystal, the crystal table, intricate geometric structure of it is almost impossible to see, I draw my gaze from it and face the council.

‘You have been away for a long time.’ Says First.

‘In solitude.’ Says Second.

Then there is silence, they are waiting for me to answer.

‘Yes. I returned because the next exhale is near and I am ready, I want to evolve.’ I say even to me my words seem flat. I should be able to be eloquent, I always am eloquent, what is wrong with me?

‘I see that.’ First says.

‘I have done everything asked of me, I have studied, I have learned…’

‘And you deem yourself ready?’ Says Third.

‘Yes.’ I swallow, he looks through me, it’s not invasive, it feels like the soft energy of the morning, I can smell mist and woodlands, I can taste the morning of my tongue.

‘And if you fail?’ Asks First, he crosses his finger slowly on the table.

I want to say I won’t fail, but I know very well it is a possibility.

‘Your brother once destroyed a whole system.’ Says Second.

Solar moves a little behind me. He inhales. ‘That was meant to happen.’

‘You were early.’ Says First and his gaze locks Solar in place.

My brother lowers his gaze. ‘Yes, but you have faith in me, enough faith to give me another system.’ I feel the energy jump between then, its forgiveness and power that keeps molding into expectations.

I receive the gaze next. ‘Tell me…’ First says. ‘Why is it your time?’

I exhale, look all of them in turn, and at last at Luna, she smiles that smile that knows already the outcome, it gives me strength. ‘I have studied the movement of my soul, I’ve learned to share my soul with others, with vacant grain, with empty plants, I have given them part of my light, I have spread it to fields and vast emptiness of space, I have given of myself to the tiniest building block of an atom… I can only evolve to a planet, to humans, like someone did with me, with my essence. I want to serve the creation, I want to give life and my soul to others. It is what I am meant to do.’ I look at First. ‘It is what I am meant to be.’

Time stand silent against my skin, it prickles on the edges and it dawns on me, my brother and sister have lately, ever since their councils, been different, some of their divinity has merged with emotions and rashness, Luna has taken up practices she long ago let go, my brother has taken, well--- lovers, many of them, a practise of his own he outgrew long time ago. And me I have been different, there have been emotions, physical changes, I have felt more solid, I have felt more… They will choose me, I know it.

First smiles at me, he sees my mind and he smiles. ‘Yes, Terra, we are giving you a planet.’

It is indescribable, my heart feels like it is going to burst, happiness spills through me and around me, and I recognise the feeling I had felt in Andromeda, in her planet as well.

‘But..’ Says Third. I freeze for a moment. ‘Solar will be in charge of your system, he so called jumps the gun and perhaps he need his family with him to keep him in check.’

To this Solar grins, he smacks his hand on my back and squeezes my shoulder. ‘Good news!’

‘And Luna will escort you Terra, she has had a planet already, she will be your satellite, your council on your first Life.’ Third nods to Luna who has not move since we entered, she looks at me and simply smiles.

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The pain is subsiding, slowly, very slowly. I have water now.

I feel raw - everything is in pins and needles, but the water soothes, it is like ointment all over my ragged skin, I spread it everywhere and ravel in its feeling, it is easy to bring life to the cell now, I am calm and it comes like second nature. I feel elated as I watch these little things hum around in the first oceans, Luna watches me and my brother increases the light.

Creating a life that repeats itself is slightly harder, this is where others talk to me and ask to be able to use my planet for their Life Cycle. I feel so proud that they want me, my planet, what I can give them. These souls, they are so perfect, the first ones! I am still unsure to give them to my cells so I give them to my oceans and rocks and crystals, they inhabit them and I feel more alive than ever. They speak to me for a while, but then it becomes quiet, they have merged in the solid material I am now made of. The only ones who talk to me are my sister, who is still forming her shape from the loose rocks left in my orbit by the millions of meteor fragments and my brother who is so excited about the growth of his body and the planets pulled to him that his excitement is sometimes too much to bare, it is like he is nineteen again.

Creating life that inhabits my soul is hard work, but I get better all the time, each thing more magnificent than the other and I let the souls evolve into my life forms, it is a different the feeling, they merge with not just my body but my soul, our souls are both in these life forms. For a moment I stop creating and just am with these souls, this is why I am in this form, this ecstasy I feel through their joy and exuberance to movement, to feelings on their skin… there are so many of them so many emotions and feeling to be felt, it overloads me and for a moment I stop and just am.

I know I have to continue and slowly, very slowly I mold and help them become perfect forms of themselves, where their fins no longer are enough I create their bodies to adapt to earth, I give them more control of their heads with necks, to adapt to moving being more difficult on earth, yes I have decided to call my land Earth, homage to my grandmother. Then they will have legs and soon my lands are teaming with life, little ones and big ones, in waters as well. It still makes me sad when they attack and kill each other but I know this is how it is meant to be for now – I myself were as infant as they are now. They are surviving, very little is seen of those souls that first contacted me, but I see them hover between lives on the sky of mine, they look back on their lives, like I once did, and they always choose to return here, it is almost a challenge to them, I can feel the ‘I can do better’ emanate from them. Sometimes they see me while they hover sometimes they ignore me – it is the veil. They forget. That is fine, I have time to wait for remembrance.

I am very proud of my animals, even if they are sometimes very violent, what I enjoy a lot as well are the immigrants, they ask me to form their vessels according to the Grand Plan, and I do, the council sees to it, these life forms are different even before they are inhabited, these forms like the dolphins have another planet’s soul inside them as well, with mine and them and their inhabitant’s soul they are energetically amazing and I feel a deep connection to these animals, they will slumber and wait till it’s time for them. My planetary sisters are a part of me as well, Sirius in my Dolphins, Orion in my Wolfs and Dogs, Arcturus in my Lions. I myself give piece of me to Pleiadians, it is a modification of my Elephant and few souls choose to take part of being the essence of Earth on Pleiadians and they travel to their system. I find I actually miss them, they have been with me for so long that I still feel a pull to them when they are not home.

The focus now is on the great apes, this is where miracles come to play, they are the hardest to evolve, these will be my humans. I try few times but can tell I moved too much to one direction or other until finally I have it!  Homo sapiens.  By this time my Earth looks amazing, the lush green forests, brilliant clean blue oceans, the majestic rugged mountain ranges in the evening sun, that is what my brother calls his celestial body, the Sun. Still a ‘Solar’ System though. My sister fascinates my humans, they worship her, which I understand well, she has never been without admirers, she gives them gifts and enjoys the attention and sometimes she secretly smiles at me and winks, she knows this is a phase and takes this adoration in stride. My brother truly enjoys his attentions, he indulges on the ceremonies until the sacrifices begin, at which point he pulls away and looks at me to keep my humans in check.

I do my best, but the more they grow and evolve the more hostile streaks they get, this is the storm before the next quiet. They become smarter, some wiser, their souls begin to feel me again, they talk to me now, instead of worship. This attracts more souls to come and begin their journeys here, they insist on beginning at the mountains and oceans like my original souls did. I am honored and allow them.

My brother reminds me how close we are to our end, it disturbs me.

‘Half way.’ He sounds elated.

‘I’m not ready.’ I say and feel him laugh, I can never hold my frown when he smiles, the sun body fuels his power over me and I laugh as well. ‘I suppose I have time.’

He is quiet for a moment. ‘In all seriousness, Terra, I have had trouble holding my form lately, it’s testing.’

‘If you kill my planet I won’t speak to you for a hundred exhales!’ I snap, and he laughs again.

‘Do you doubt me sister?’

‘Hmmm, look what you made me do.’ I say and calm myself and my oceans, my moods are more tied to my waters now, the bond has deepened over the millions of years and I have to stay calm more than I use to.

‘Your human’s stress seems to have rubbed off on you.’ Solar feels smug.

‘They are very strong. Even in their hate, which will fade.’ I say and look at our sister who observes us but says nothing.

‘You wish it will fade.’ Solar remarks, I feel an urge to show my tongue at him which gets him laughing again. ‘Your humans are making you more fun than you have been in years!’

‘Stop harassing your sister and deal with your bursts, Solar.’ Luna finally says and I feel her silver liquid calm pour over me.

‘They will calm down.’ I say protecting my Life.

She sees me and smiles. ‘I believe they have potential.’ She shines fully on the sky straight opposite of our brother. ‘But you know what has to happen for them to live, you know why your brother is having trouble holding his shape, it can begin if one wrong move is made.’

I feel fear for the first time since my birth as earth. ‘They can’t kill them all.’

‘They will unless something happens, unless you help them.’ Luna speaks slowly. ‘You have to evolve some of them already.’

‘It’s difficult, Luna, they are so perfect.’ I try.

‘Evolve them.’ She is quiet for a moment. ‘I would start by getting rid of that Hitler you have roaming around.’

‘I cannot intervene, you know that.’ I say the words without enthusiasm. ‘I cannot destroy what I have created.’

Luna is silent, she feels the energy of the planet, I can feel her as she does it, and I try and slap her hand of. ‘You want to intervene.’

Of course I do, but this is all meant to be.

‘’Meant to be, yes, but who says that you are not a part of what is mean to be.’ With this she draws herself away from me and closes.

I look at her celestial body hover so close to me and feel nothing from her.

I look at my humans, they are so perfect, it is harder and harder to evolve them, but like before there isn’t a way around it, next ones have to come.

I find it at last, after years of trying to fine tune them, the little gene, the little cluster of cells and mass of atoms that will change them, you cannot see it but I can, I had tried this few times before with results that were not for those times but now I have no other choice, it is evolve or die.

And they evolved.

My first ones who were born again to these bodies discovered them different, they recalled their pasts if they wanted to, they felt me and saw me when they focus on me, they see the angels now, they hear their messages and above all they finally, finally, feel unconditional love.

These are my true perfect children, growing up, discovering their origin, discovering their divinity, seeing the world of Light and letting go of world of Fear.

I could not be more proud of them, more proud of me, more proud of US, we have taken the First Step to Divinity together, to all encompassing, unconditionally loving infinity…