CHANGE YOUR BRAIN, CHANGE YOUR LOVE LIFE ~ AUDIO

I truly recommend this discussion!
Daniel G. Amen is interviewed by Gay and Katie Hendricks about our Brain and how having an unhealthy brain causes grave emotional relationship problems, and how a healthy brain can handle the tools to improve their emotional skills. Interesting sidetracks happened where Daniel G. Amens talks about natural remedies vs. drugs in treating brain related troubles, he speaks how using a drug like Xanax in brain spectrum imaging shows up as brain being drunk, where as St. Johnswart a natural herb for debression only shows a healthier brain, but has same results.
Interestingly he also talks of how alcohol makes your brain smaller and how overweight people have smaller brains, talks about the studies conducted on them.
I personally already was aware of these two studies, but it was interesting he brough them up as well.

Monday May 23rd 2011 "Change Your Brain, Change Your Love Life" @ http://consciouspartnering.net/program

Daniel G. Amen, MD is an award winning physician, psychiatrist, best-selling author, international speaker, and brain enhancement expert.  He is the founder, CEO, and medical director of the world renowned Amen Clinics, Inc.
Dr. Amen educates companies, organizations, and individuals on the importance of brain health and the impact of the brain on every aspect of life. The host of 4 highly successful PBS programs and a frequent radio and TV guest, Daniel is the author of 24 book, including the New York Times best-sellers, “Change Your Brain, Change Your Life,” “Magnificent Mind at Any Age” and “Change Your Brain, Change Your Body.”  He is an engaging and entertaining speaker, and he is at the forefront of applying brain science to improve everyday life.
Visit his website: http://www.amenclinics.com

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

BIRTH 2012 & AWAKENING TO THE CALL OF THE COSMOS ~ AUDIO LECTURES

I have TWO great audio teleseminars to share with you, both Free ofcourse ( you know this is to be expected with me by now ;) ).

First is "Birth 2012: Co-Creating Planetary Shift on December 22nd 2012" with Barbara Marx Hubbard
To access this 1 HOUR lecture, you need to sign in @ http://birth2012.com/ with your name and e-mail address.
Then go to http://birth2012.com/program and sign in with the e-mail address to get access to the recording from March 22nd.

"So, for a moment, just take the perspective of a universal human, an astronaut. You are circling earth, you are visualizing and seeing it as a whole system struggling to coordinate, running out of its old form of energy. Its nervous system beginning to connect us all so we feel the pain of one throughout the whole body. And feel as this pain increases, there is an uprising of empathy. Our species is becoming empathetic. For the very first time, we are feeling the pain of others throughout the planetary body. As the empathy and heart connection increases among us, there is an awakening of the spirit within us and that spirit that has impelled each of us to be on this phone call and the hundreds of millions that will participate in the planetary birth on December 21 and 22, each of us is impelled by this source of creation itself. We are impelled by the process and impulse of evolution to participate. We are not doing this alone. And as the resonance and empathy builds, we feel as we are feeling on this phone an impulse that may not yet have a name. That may not yet have an obvious goal, but its rising within us. Our new nervous system is turning on and if we take the image of ourselves as a planetary baby, FaceBook and Twitter have just turned on." ~http://birth2012.com/sites/birth2012.com/files/Birth2012Activation.pdf

The second audio is Craig Hamilton's "Awakening to the Call of The Cosmos"
To access this 1½ HOUR lecture, you need to sign in @ http://integralenlightenment.com/online-courses/cosmos/ with your name and e-mail address. They'll send you a link to download the recording. (If not you can dowload it here http://integralenlightenment.com/online-courses/cosmos/downloads/craig.5.27.mp3.zip )

Something new is stirring in our midst. Each day, more and more of us are awakening to a calling to participate in the “great work” of consciously evolving ourselves and our world.
If you’re feeling this evolutionary call, you’ve probably taken to heart Einstein’s statement that we can’t solve our problems from the same level of consciousness that created them.
You probably also recognize that it’s not enough to simply “visualize world peace” or wait for the end of the Mayan calendar to usher in a new age.
You’ve realized that for the world to change in a meaningful way, human beings are going to have to evolve beyond the primitive, ego-driven patterns that continue to hold us back from our potential. And that, as with any meaningful change, a group of pioneers are needed to lead the way.
A new spiritual impulse is arising, compelling us to transform ourselves not merely for our own happiness, but in order to serve the greatest calling there is—the further evolution of life, humanity, and consciousness itself—and the creation of a more enlightened future.

Enjoy! I know I will!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

ON EMOTIONAL EATING

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I am done with Fake Foods! Processed little helpers for wives,  mothers and bachelors everywhere! Done! I have started to notice lately that everytime I buy for example french fries when I'm on time crunch I feel so bad after eating them, like they truly block my Solar Plexus Chakra. So no more! Just needed to say this before you read on about On Emotional Eating.

I am a vegetarian, and I love cooking with prober ingredients, or at least what I currently think are prober ingredients! ;) That said - I have been batteling with food issues lately, and I have been confused about why I am drawn to food that isn't really food at all, maily processed foods and sugar. And I haven't really found a lot of prober spiritual explanations for it! Go figure. ;)
Being attuned to my body has been helpful but not really helping enough to break the cycle. The cycle being sugar in it's candy form ( pretty much the worst graving  you can imagine ), see my mind knows how extremely bad sugar is for me, mind and body, but it is a powerful addictive subject so it's hard to get rid of it.

I stopped drinking alcohol in April 2010, which was easy as I've never really been into drinking in my adult age ( of course when I was young and in school alcohol was part of the group experience hense it happened every now and then ), I stopped because it wasn't in my spiritual path anymore.
Then I stopped drinking coffee in November 2010, now that was harder, not that I graved it, no, but my body went through 3 days of withdrawls of headaches, muscle aches and nausea. I stopped drinking coffee because of the caffein, a artificial pick me up. Now candy, being pretty much just sugar is trickier for me as it's a mood enhancer, literally sugar gives you a high ( not druggy high but sudden burst of feel good that only last a little while ). So when it's been a tough day at work ( I feel like I should talk in past tense as work's been good lately, less stress ) I notice the pick me up for me is going to the store as I get food and get candy as well, and when I eat it it does make me a little happier or relaxed for a while.

I can regocnise this behavior, which is good as it's probably the first step! Now the next step is to figure out how to stop doing this, how to break the cycle, and this is where I'll introduce you to this video of Leija Turunen's!



From YouTube:

❞ Do you ever eat when you feel stressed, overwhelmed, sad, lonely, hopeless, angry, confused, lost, or even bored? Do you sometimes (or quite often) use food to suppress/ numb that pain you feel or use it in attempt to fill some void you feel through not (essentially) connecting to the heartspace and creative, spiritual self? I share my personal experience with emotional eating, why I feel I did it, and share some of the ways I worked through these issues. Of course there are going to be different reasons for why people eat emotionally, but for the majority of people, it usually comes down to one or more of the following:

• Not being in alignment with your passions / having a stressful job - Believing you can't pursue a career that is in alignment with your passions and support yourself financially.
• Not knowing how to manage emotional pain / stress in a healthy way.
• Not speaking your truth / suppressing who you really are in some way.
• Feeling bored and entertaining yourself with food.
• Trying to escape or distract yourself from your problems with food.
• Being a very sensitive / empathic person and feeling completely overwhelmed with life on this planet, and not knowing how to nurture your sensitivity / protect yourself from the harshness.
• Having an overall feeling of stress and anxiety, which could be for a myriad of reasons, but when it comes down to it, it's a disconnection to the heartspace.
• Feeling a void within - Not even knowing who you are, what you're truly passionate about (feeling disconnected) because of the influences from the media, education system, food & "disease-care" industry- ie. processed foods, fluoride, pharmaceutical drugs like prozac.Not connecting to your creativity and spiritual side enough, and instead listening to once again, to the external influences and your ego's ideas about why you're not good enough as you are right now.
• Perhaps having experienced something really traumatic, and using food to try to suppress/ numb that pain you still feel. Whatever the reason is, I feel that some of the things I talk about in this video can help you to some degree. ❞

I really liked her tip to go and do something when you grave food, when you don't Need food for nutrition.
And her idea of connectin to the sweetness of life, so we don't have to fight boredom with chocolate, hit home for me.

So what I am taking from this video, mainly, is Calm Down, Get Out when I have candy graving ( 08:15 - 10:05 ) and workout the body and mind to solve emotions instead of eating candy.

Also tackling my personal habit of shopping for food daily, and instead doing it two to three times a week, so I have no reason to go to the store daily and pick up bad fake foods.

I'm excited to try this! I feel like I have to find my own right way to do this, what is right for my body and mind and soul. I don't want to go in anyway against my body and what is right for it.

Another experiment begins!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

WHY IT IS SO IMPORTANT TO LISTEN TO YOUR BODY

There are people who go on about life with a deaf ear to what the body wants, they are those determined to do what they want and nothing else - whatever might be needed is not listen to because it doesn't come from the Mind.
There is another extreme as well, the ones who are slaves to the wants of the body. The body sees something and it has to be had, new shoes - oh must get those, new tea - oh have to have that, new chocolate - oh I want that so bad! The filter never really kicks into gear.

Alright, so is there a Golden middle? If you've ever visited it, you bet your behind there is!

But what to give in to? Guidelines, anyone? No, I'm afraid not. There really isn't a universal way to listen to your body, for the simplest reason, we aren't the same we don't eat the same things, we don't wear the same things, we don't have the same genetic make-up - where the guy next to you might have iron deficiensy, you don't. Where the girl on your other side might have too much salt in her diet, you do not.
This is why there cannot be solid rules. We have to go by ear and start to little by little learn to intepret the signals and needs of the body.

Had salads for four days straight, and graving chips? Instead of saying in your head I'm graving junk food, give this a thought - salt deficiensy, now instead of chips, get the healthier option, try pickles. Graving to eat Fish - you might be in need of Potassium or vitamins A and D.

Why I'm blogging about this is because I've been a vegetarian for 8 months now, before that I still ate fish while otherwise on a vegetarian diet since last April, so since I stopped eating fish 8 months ago I haven't given it second though as a food. But then about two weeks ago whenever I saw fish in a magazine I felt like "yummy I want that" - slightly confusing. I first ignored, but as it didn't go away I asked myself a question. Why am I denying what my body needs? It isn't going away it would have already passed in a week, it isn't a want but a need, so why am I not listening to the messages my body is giving me?

That struck bit of a core with me, I am very attuned to my body and what it needs and lately I've been truly ignoring it. So what I did was get a fish for dinner, quit my 'dark months of winter' candy habit, and begun to exercise ( speaking of which after I'm done with this blog, I'm ready for my Zumba 50min Cardio Party! ).
Instead of just being about one dinner of Fish, this topic when thought about set off a whole flair things!
And the funny thing is I haven't graved fish sence. ;)

Sometimes fish isn't just fish, sometimes food is a key ingredient in a little life change!

But truly listening to your body, everyone should do daily. Atleast once a day have a really good listen to something that your body wants and needs - there is a whole world to Discover about yourself, trust me you know so little and there is so much to learn! And it can be great fun! Atleast I love nothing more than that Oh, That's Why! moment that comes out of the blue.

So wether its about eating something, buying new shoes or getting the right brand of tea, trust your body - it is capable to pick up color and pattern signals of things you need, but more than that it's a channel to your conciousness and mind to give you things that are right for you at the moment, and with them an insight to your life here.

Love your Life and Listen to your Body!

Off to get my cardio done for the day!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

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MORE ON LUNAR ECLIPSE AND SOLSTICE ON 21ST OF DEC

It is now 4 days to the Total Lunar Eclipse and we are beginning to feel the effects of the energetic shift. I personally before doing the math lit some insence ( which I haven't done for a month or so ) and meditated ( which also haven't done for months ) - after few moments I started to feel slightly static inside, and searched for the cause, which led me to detect a light shell of myself inside me, almost like a holograph of me but a white shell of me. It kept adjusting, flashing from one side to another like interference on the radio waves, not quite ready to manifest or choose it's place, creating the static vibrations I felt. I understood that this is the shift that will happen as the Winter Solstice and Lunar Eclips occur. Welcome! Now new information on the 21st of December 2010.

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Full Moon, Total Lunar Eclipse and Winter Solstice Align the Dec 21st for a Powerful Energetic Opening
From: www.Ask-Angels.com

Change is already in the air, and with the powerful upcoming full moon, lunar eclipse, and winter solstice alignment on December 21, 2010 this is only going to be amplified.
We're now only 2 years away from the much anticipated date of Dec 21 2012 and this does have a great significance! The upcoming full moon, winter solstice and total lunar eclipse of this year will be extra potent and powerful alignment, due to our now close location to the center of the galaxy.

The galactic center will be directly aligned with our sun on December 21 2012, but even now, the close proximity to this galactic center adds power, priority and frequency to the great changes already in the process of manifesting on Earth.

The galaxy center is said to be the center of the universe, the sun of our sun, and the place where stars and planets are born. It is the source of gravity in our universe, and also offers extra energy, motivation and purpose if we are able to correctly "tune in" to its power.
The main purpose of this years powerful energetic opening on December 21, is to assist you in fully opening your heart, mind, and physical body to successfully merge and align with the new energy. The benefit in this alignment is that it supports you in realigning with the original plan for your life, and the ability to fulfill this purpose. You are here on earth with a unique and special purpose, the astrological alignment of this year seeks to bring you back into full alignment with your unique divine path here on Earth.
Your unique purpose here on Earth is in no way created or classified by the beliefs of society as a whole, and society cannot help you find this truth. Rather, realigning with your true purpose here on Earth means realigning with the essence of who you are, a spiritual being!

Challenges During Alignment

The December 2010 solstice, and even the 2012 solstice opening can be positive conduits for change here on Earth, but the results are not predetermined. Change is certain, but the eventual outcome is largely influenced by the collective thoughts, beliefs and actions of humanity. We humans have a clear choice... fear or love. Depending on how we respond to upcoming challenges will determine our collective future.
Love, compassion, and unity are a beautiful possibility of what can manifest in this new energy. However, to stay in these positive emotions there is still a great deal of clearing work that is needed in all. The energy of this month, especially around the powerful energy of the Solstice will shine light on all areas where you aren't fully centered in love and compassion. What painful or challenging emotions from your past are still stored within you? In the energy this month, these feelings will come up! Anger, pain, sadness, frustration... these are great examples of what must be released from within you, so that you can fully integrate the light into your being, and stay in alignment with your true purpose. When you face these challenging emotions, give thanks for you are now able to fully release them into the light, and forever be lighter yourself!
Learning to respond with love in every situation will assure that you stay on your divine path, and accomplish what you came here to Earth to do!

Clearing and Preparing for 2012

Be aware that you may feel raw, exposed and deeply challenged this month. As new challenges come up for you, along with old emotions to release... remember that your release work now, will enable you to stay centered in love, compassion, joy, and abundance as you move forward.
Releasing that which no longer serves you now, will set you up to be in a position to help others... as release work is moving from the optional category to being mandatory for all.

Love and Compassion!

This time is about clearing karmic energy that resides within you at a cellular level. Tragic events from past lives can leave old emotions stored within you, that unless cleared, you will never be able to move beyond. This lifetime is your opportunity to clear your karmic record and begin the new age, starting in December 2012 with a clean slate! The catch to this time being about clearing karmic energy, is that the energies are already coming up to be released whether you are conscious of it or not. Anger, sadness, depression, confusion...these are examples of the energy that once properly released into the light will no longer need to be relived. Without release, you can be sure you will continue in the same painful pattern and this simply is not necessary!
A new world filled with peace, love, happiness, and abundance is possible if humanity as a whole chooses love. Prepare yourself for this, with powerful focused angelic assistance! Compassion, truth, and love offer us a way through all challenges. We all have an incredible opportunity now to change the course of history forever, to live in balance with mother earth and each other. As you navigate this month, remember that as humanity we are essentially all one, focus on being present in the now moment... respond to all situations with love, and start acting according to your inner truth, in an authentic way. As 2012 approaches more quickly every day, we have an incredible opportunity to focus on love, and compassion for all beings. This love focus and true connection with Spirit is enough to overcome any challenge.
Visit www.Ask-Angels.com for more information.

Shared with LOVE for ALL~

SiNeh~ DC~ Peter

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Shared  to inform everyone of their chance for growth and release for a better life!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

EVERYTHING YOU DO MATTERS!

There has never been anyone like you with your thoughts and your reasoning. You are unique! ( and don't forget this is said to everyone, how amazing! )



Even as a video for a book it shares an amazing truth absolutely everything you do and think matters - Everything Matters!

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

"RESCUE FRIENDLINESS" MISSION AND NEW LIFE PATH REVEALED

"At the end dishes telling me that all emotional nurishment can be replaced with spiritual essence to break the cycle of addiction to emotional hang ups, such as emotional pick-me-ups ( aka food, romance, need, company, drugs, alcohol, money, shopping, gossiping and so on... ) and emotional downers ( aka drugs, alcohol, smokes, anrguing, venting, ranting, silent treatment and so on... )."

If you you wish you can skip the Dream part right down to Interpretation where I talk about the spiritual insight this dream gave me. I always enjoy the process of figuring out how things work, but as dreams are personal they are less likely to mean jack-squat to others, LOL, so feel free to skip it. ;)

The Dream = I was saving marine animals with a group of people, dolphins, whales, coral...
There was also a train I sat in with my husband and people were going by celebrating, on their limos and cars...
And then I recall doing dishes in a book store???

Ocean = It traditionally represents our great unconscious, memories, emotions, and individual soul and collective experiences. Look at all of the details in this dream. Is the water clear or murky? Is it calm or turbulent? Are you catching fish, or are you stranded and afraid? Look, listen, and try to comprehend the messages in this dream. No one is in a better position to give meaning to your dreams than you can. ( clear, calm water, but I felt stressed there as animals weren't well )
Dolphins =  Dolphins represent friendliness, communal living, rescue, communication, and affection. They are water dwelling mammals and in our dreams they represent our willingness and ability to navigate through emotions. They represent positive messages from our unconscious minds. Dolphins could also represent a positive connection between our consciousness and to those parts of the psyche that is a mystery and largely unconscious. ( I was trying to rescue friendliness, community, communication and affection. Also they represent willingness and ability to navigate feelings I'm rescueing )
Whales = For most people, dreaming about whales is a pleasant experience. These huge water dwelling mammals may be symbolic of the connection that exists between the unconscious and conscious mind. They may represent the dreamer's level of awareness, perceptiveness, and intuition. Some think that they represent our emotional power or are messengers from the spiritual realms. ( conscious and unconscious connection, a messenger from spiritual realms to inform me of the emotional mission of rescuing friendship and communial living I need to embark on )
Train =  The train could also be symbolic of your need to move on and to do things in an orderly and sequential manner. ( do things in an orderly and sequential manner on my friendship-mission )
Happiness = If you are currently experiencing sadness this dream may be an attempt to compensate and to comfort you. Traditionally this may be called a dream of the contrary. Extreme happiness in a dream calls for an evaluation of daily reality in an attempt to identify those things that are difficult and painful, i.e. things that make you feel the opposite of happy. ( they were super happy in the dream, detect in daily reality things that make people unhappy, what is difficult and painful to them - and how that ties to rescuing frienships and unity )
Bookstore =  In our daily life, books are a source of information and a place to gain knowledge. They can be inspirational, and their messages are sometimes so strong that they change our lives. The books in our dreams can represent our memories, learned understanding, ideas, or viewpoints. They can alert us to the fact that we have something new to learn and that we should spend time on mastering new tasks. ( something new to learn, like how to detect unhappiness and it's causes, and taking time to master a this new skill - sure sounds like something was downloaded while I slept doesn't it ;) )
Dishes = (couldn't find this so I'm winging it) Water is a deeply spiritual symbol representing the "water of life" or the "flow of life." Doing dishes represents using this spiritual essence to clean residue of emotional nurishment off the vessel. ( replacing emotional food with spiritual light, people are hung up on emotional pick me ups and downers which can be replaced by spiritual peace )

Niina's Dream Interpretation

Alright! What a dream! I knew the second I woke up that this was important, and that I should do interpretation of it. I even remembered it very clearly. It seems I got downloaded with an spiritual upgrade to perfect the Feminine Power Package. ( techno-babble, sorry, simply means that I received tools to but my Feminine Power idea into action )
It started with saving rescueing ocean creatures, ocean representing the emotional unconscious world that was calm, but in it I was trying to help save dolphins representing friendliness and communial living / unity and whales that represent connection between unconscious and conscious world, telling me to take this idea into actions. I also recall treating coral that looked like a large brain, it was all guey on the inside and had to be rinced which was dangerous but had to be done.
Next thing I recalled from the dream was the train representing the need to move on and do it in orderly fashion, other peoples happiness in my dream called me to look and identify reasons why people are unhappy, what is painful to them or what causes them unhappiness.
Next I saw books everywhere which represent knowledge and information that I have that I need to use while indentifying unhappinesses root causes on others also books are telling me to master this new task with time, and at the end dishes telling me that all emotional nurishment can be replaced with spiritual essence to break the cycle of addiction to emotional hang-ups, such as emotional pick-me-ups ( aka food, romance, need, company, drugs, alcohol, money, shopping, gossiping and so on... ) and emotional downers ( aka drugs, alcohol, smokes, anrguing, venting, ranting, silent treatment and so on... ).
It'll be my pleasure to dive into this and figure out how this fits to my Life Path and how it can be used to help other. I love dream time! :D

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

BEAUTY COMPETITION - LETS CALL IT A TIE

"I suppose letting go of such things as vanity, surface beauty, sexual appeal and youth market is somewhat scary."

"But we still let others ideas of us affect us. If someone looks down their nose at you, you feel a sting of "oh there is something wrong with me" followed by "that jerk". We give a lot of our power away due to physical differences in our bodies if we are not careful."

"This is notoriously harder on women, there is competition going on, who is more beautiful, who has most admirers, who has had most sex, who has had most boyfriends. Who has the best, most stylish clothes, most beautiful hair, who has the most expensive make-up, who applies it best... I want absolutely nothing to do with this side of 3D femininity."
~ From Niina's Dream Interpretation below the dream

The dream interpreting triggered a great  idea, first this was all about the dream but ended up being a truly spiritual experience.

You can skip the dream and go straight to the Dream Interpretation, that's where the idea struck me.

And if you are interested how this idea was brought to daily exsistence proceed to The Dream.

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The Dream: First dream had a ship, and there was a steering competition between us and them, in the end everyone hit bar and a couple kissed. In the second dream I recall blue and jeans, store, clothing, baby who almost got kidnapped. And in the last dream I was in a train, there was competition on weird hair do, I wasn't a participant, I got off the train and made my way up to the  bus stop where I went to get snack at a kiosk, I got really frustrated as my turn didn't come to pay as this guy was bad at his job, I threw my stuff off I took a bus to work.

Ship = As mentioned in all relevant dream symbols, bodies of water represent your unconscious, your emotions, and your accumulated soul experiences. The ship in your dream could represent you and the ways in which you navigate thought these parts of yourself. When interpreting this dream, consider the kind of voyage and the type of ship. Some dream interpretation books say that if the voyage is calm you should go forward with your plans. However, if it is a very stormy voyage, get ready for an emotional upset or challenge. ( "We" won the steering competition between us and them - the ship was beautiful, the seas calm )
Bar = When I was in college, I read in a theology book that a monk on a mountain top and a man with his bottle of wine are really trying to get to the same place. That "place" translates to peace and a genuine feeling of being connected to the rest of the universe. Dreaming about being in bars and drinking may symbolize a need that you have for some type of a meaningful transformation. On the other hand, this dream may be a form of wish fulfilment, and you are escaping into a pleasurable environment where daily cares and concerns are meaningless. If you rarely allow yourself to relax and socialize, this dream may be compensatory in nature. ( A need for a meaningful transformation - if I am in charge of my life now then perhaps that is a cause to a meaningful transformation of something old to new  )
Kiss = In this dream you may be expressing feelings that are difficult to express during the day. Kissing is usually an indication of warmth, affection, and happiness. If you don't receive enough love and affection in your daily life, then this could be a compensatory dream, where the dreamer is comforting himself. If you are kissing the object of your affection, the dream could be a form of wish fulfilment. ( It wasn't me kissing it was two other people, kiss indicates warmth, affection and happiness, perhaps this transformation will bring more of those )
Christmas = To dream of Christmas represents close relationships and joyful times with loved ones. It can also imply entering a new phase or stage of your life. Think about what feelings and emotions you hold regarding Christmas as well. ( Christmas is to me all about Peace and Joy, not people but generally everyone is more peaceful and happy it makes the energies around light I love that - entering new stage of life  )
Blue = Most people dream in colors, but at times some stand out more than others. Colors are symbolic and their symbolism is part of culture. We communicate with color and relate ideas with them. For example, a bride wears white and black is worn at funerals. Colors also represent energy. The meaning that you give to the colors in your dreams depends on the meaning that you give to those colors in daily life. Some generalizations have been made as to the meaning of colors in dreams. Blue: spirituality, optimism, positive thoughts, communication. Some believe that when you see it in your dreams, you may be in the presence of your spiritual guide.  ( It is funny that I remember nothing but Blue and Jeans of this part of the dream - perhaps my transformation is helped by my spiritual guides  )
Clothing = Clothing generally represent our worldly appearance or status. At times, it may represent our attitudes toward ourselves and others. Mostly, it represent the way that we appear to the world. Clothes are not symbolic of our private self, but rather of our public self. A poor man wears different clothes than a rich man. A doctor's attire is different from that of a carpenter. The type of clothing that we wear varies from situation to situation. The type of clothes that you are wearing in the dream will give you clues to the meaning of the dream and to your unconscious ideas about yourself and others. ( I was picking out new clothes to wear after transformation dream and mom ( The general image of "mother" in a dream may symbolize a variety of feelings and ideas: caring, nurturing, love, acceptance, hard work, sacrifice, martyrdom, etc.) was there - New status of caring, loving, nurturing, accepting, which probably bring up challenges on sacrifice and martyrdom )
Kidnapping = The main theme in abduction dreams is fear. The dreamer may be afraid of losing a very important part of himself or of losing his safest and most familiar surroundings. Also, the dreamer may be afraid of leaving his home, childhood, familiar support group, or long standing ideas. These type of dreams may be most prevalent during times of psychological or physical transition and during stressful times of life when the future is somewhat uncertain. Consider the details of your dream and try to isolate or identify the fear that created the dream. ( Fear of leaving long standing ideas - it wasn't really fearful experience as the kidnapping was stopped at the store door - so perhaps there is inkling of fear but nothing that would stop me at my tracks )
Zombie =  Dreaming about the living dead may carry a powerful message. If you are "walking around like a zombie," it usually means that you are emotionally disconnected from things going on around you. You may be experiencing unhealthy detachment and are unable to appropriately feel positive or negative emotions. Currently, you may be out of touch and outside of the main flow of life. This dream could positively sever you and help you to become aware of emotional issues and circumstances in daily life that are difficult to face. ( I saw zombies in one part of my dream - can't remember much but they were there, involving a bus )
Train = This dream symbol can be very complicated and its meaning is specific to the dreamer (as all dream symbols are). If you normally take the train to work and it is a part of your daily experience, closer attention should be paid to the other details of the dream. The train could also be symbolic of your need to move on and to do things in an orderly and sequential manner.  ( Details it is the only detail I recall is the hair-do competition - need to move on )
Hair = Hair is highly valued by most cultures. It is symbol of vanity, security, sensuality, sexual appeal, and of youth. In some cultures women are not allowed to show their hair outside their homes. Wealthy men go through painful surgery and spend thousands of dollars to replace lost hair follicles. Needless to say, hair is a valuable dream symbol. It represents physical and spiritual strength. Samson's hair was the source of his strength and virility. In our dreams hair can represent our thoughts, knowledge, and reasoning. White or gray hair represents age and wisdom while body hair may symbolize protection and warmth. When interpreting this dream make attempts to identify a primary issue and connect it to a situation in your daily life. ( Alright! So I have this Need to move on (train) from vanity, sexual appeal, youth competition as I didn't take part on the competition in the train - hair also present spiritual and physical strength, so perhaps it is because of those that I move on from these vanities )
Anger = This may be a carry-over from your daily life. In our dreams we can experience and express such feelings safely. Feeling great anger in your dream may be disturbing but pay attention to it and attempt to deal with all of your emotions in a more appropriate and productive manner. ( I was angry because I had to wait unreasonably long, I was afraid I'd miss the bus )
Bus = If the bus and/or the bus ride was a focal point of the dream consider the value that it holds for you. Does this dream say something about your ability to "fit in" and join a group effort, project, or trip? Do you function well in group settings? Are you a leader or a follower in such situations, and what is your comfort level? This dream could also reflect a part of your life (or the journey of your life) which involved many other people who seemed to be on a same path. It could be your family, friends, schoolmates or co-workers. ( That's the thing I do not fit it, I am not a leader or a follower in "society" I pull away from it and want sort of nothing to do with these Groups, not matter if they have family in them (there was an aunt in the bus and I ignored her like I did everyone else as well) or not. So why was I worried of missing the bus? )

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Niina's Dream Interpretation: This dream indicates I myself am in charge of my life and that will cause a meaningful transformation of something old to something new. This will bring warmth, affection, and happiness into my life, with the main theme of Peace and Joy. It seems while this takes place I am taken care of by spiritual guides of mine.

This will bring up a new status of caring, loving, nurturing, accepting, which probably will bring up challenges on sacrifice and martyrdom, even if there is kindness it doesn't mean one should let themselves be "used" and have to sacrifice part of themselves for others or to become a martyr by "dying" a little for a cause. No thank you.

There is fear of leaving long standing ideas, even though there wasn't really that much fear, I suppose letting go of such things as vanity, surface beauty, sexual appeal and youth market is somewhat scary. ;) What people think of you should not be a thought at all. ACiM talks about Illusions, and what others think of you is surely an illusion. We create our world, and even though we are co-creators it doesn't mean that anyone else's ideas of you should effect your idea of who you are.

Only you can decide how you feel about a matter, right? Only you can decide wither you like something, love something, no one can mix in with their emotion of the matter.
But we still let others ideas of us affect us. If someone looks down their nose at you, you feel a sting of 'oh there is something wrong with me' followed by 'that jerk'.
We give a lot of our power away due to physical differences in our bodies if we are not careful.

This is notoriously harder on women, there is competition going on, who is more beautiful, who has most admirers, who has had most sex, who has had most boyfriends. Who has the best, most stylish clothes, most beautiful hair, who has the most expensive make-up, who applies it best.
I want absolutely nothing to do with this side of 3D femininity.
Why is it harder for women than men? Well I personally think it's because women are more emotion based than men, we can easily with our intuition pick up what others feel. Other women who feed this beauty competition infect it nicely to other women, who share it in their energy. I'm not oblivious on the magazine influence either, but I think mainly women keep this up on their emotional fields, feeding this energy to one another, until they stop the cycle by coming aware of this competition.


I haven't looked at commercial or adds for few months now, and I am feeling purified of this beauty competition energy - I still come in contact with this energy daily, being looked down the nose of the physical manifestation of my beautiful co-creating sisters, which hurts a little a first but I try giving them love in return. They seem so use to of being judged daily that they look confused that I answer their evaluation of me with a smile. I truly believe we should call this competition a tie and move on.
After all how are we any different in our original state?
This is a big lesson for women to learn, to stop competing and love genuinely.


Of course this leaves the door open for what could be called being meek - which can lead back to being under the power of men again. We do not want that in our co-creation of earth.
The competition of beauty is a use of Power, we do not need to give up this power but redirect it.
Redirect it to what? What is our energy more wisely used for?
Instead of competing between one beauty and other, how about we share it, all that power of truly emotional, highly energetic power to direct to Beauty... The Beauty of Caring, Beauty of Nurturing, Beauty of Art, Beauty of Helping, the Beauty of our Land, Beauty of our Home, Beauty of Giving what only women can give the Heart and Love that is bathed in this powerful protective, unconditional acceptance and bliss.

I speak of the power of women, because I am one, and because women need to evolve, we need to be sisters instead of competition. Sisters that create this Earth to be their original energetic manifestation.
Just like you and me have personal lessons to learn, men and women have their collective lesson to learn so that an Earth that is capable of manifesting it's original Highest Purpose.


Every woman can feel that stirring under their skin when we speak of the Power that is inherently feminine, it's like the unstoppable wave of the ocean - and that is true, each woman is a wave of the ocean that makes Feminine Power. Unstoppable.

Women on the Edge of Evolution - http://womenontheedgeofevolution.com/access/ - enter the password "women."

To finish this dream interpretation I think I found a way to transform my anger of not fitting in to these groups to something more appropriate and productive indeed.

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

P.S. Following my dream revelation of my own, I got my hands to this free mp3 of the power women bring to the world when they recognize, honor, and express the gifts that are inherent in feminine energy. ♥ http://niinac.blogspot.com/2010/12/inherently-feminine-power-free-audio.html

ADULT "TIME-OUTS" AND THEIR BENEFITS

"Just like adults can't ignore their emotions without building "luggage" to carry-on with them, children can't just ignore their feelings. The common method of "time-outs" is where you are removed from the situation to calm yourself down, which works wonders on kids - how come adults have forgotten that trick?"
~ From Niina's Dream Interpretation below the Dream

The dream interpreting triggered a great  idea, first this was all about the dream and my role at work, but ended up being a truly spiritual experience on how to live a happier life, exercise on being human and the other side of forgiveness.
You can skip the dream and go straight to the Dream Interpretation, that's where the idea struck me.

And if you are interested how this idea was brought to daily exsistence proceed to The Dream.

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The Dream: I was with the kids at work and we were interviewing people for an available job there. Later alone there were people surrounding the place, ominous but doing nothing.
In the next dream, there was a stage on a mountain where we were putting on a variety show with a car crash set. We couldn't get the car to go down.

Work = Indicates that your dream applies to work as well. ( We actually are missing a co-worker but she has already been replaced )
Children = Carl Jung claimed that the dream symbol of a child is a motif for the forgotten things in our childhood. For example, your dream may be telling you that you've forgotten how to play or should take a more innocent, carefree attitude. The symbol of the child also represents possibilities. It paves the way for future changes in the personality. In addition, the child may represent the part of you that needs reassurance and security. ( Security and reassurance for what? )
Anxiety = Experiencing much anxiety in your dream state may be related to your current difficulties and everyday life. Gaps may exist between the way things are and the way you would like them to be. Older interpretation books suggest that when you dream about anxiety, the contrary is true and that your worries will be lessened. However, always keep the compensatory nature of dreams in mind. If you are not feeling anxiety during the day, it could be that you are ignoring it and that it will appear in your dream. Therefore, look at the details of your dream and attempt to identify the anxiety-provoking situations in your daily life. ( I sure am not feeling anxiety in daily life, so it's important to figure out why that is - I have had anxious dream few in a row which is why I wanted to do this dream interpretation to begin with )
Theater = Theaters may be a metaphor for our physical lives. To paraphrase Shakespeare, life is a stage and we are merely trying to make the best of it. Maybe in your dreams you are acting out some of your personal issues and concerns. Think about the details of your dream and what is going on in the theater. Is it a comedy or a tragedy? Are you having fun, or are you very uncomfortable or bored? All of these will give you clues in regard to the meaning of based theater dreams. ( It was a comedy, Variety, but I wasn't comfortable with it, I recall everyone thought I was a guy playing a girl role that sometimes turned to a guy in the comedy, and we couldn’t get the car to work )
Car = A car is most likely to represent yourself and your ability to control your life. Are you a good driver in your dream? If so, you may also be steering the right course in life. However, if you drive badly or have an accident then your unconscious may be warning you that you are making mistakes. You may be driving yourself too hard and heading for an emotional crash. Maybe someone else is driving the car? You may feel that this person, or the qualities they represent, is controlling your life. The dream may be expressing your over-dependence and lack of control. ( I was just trying to get the freaking thing going! ;) LOL! )
Mountain = Climbing a real mountain is not always fun but it usually challenging and rewarding. Some say that the mountain may represent spirituality while others suggest mental development and self-awareness. The most literal interpretation of climbing a mountain is that it represents attainment of goals. If you are ascending a mountain you may be are working hard and trying to accomplish your goals, whether they are spiritual, emotional, or material. ( Yes, there was mountain climbing going on - working hard to accomplish tying together my spiritual and material life )

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Niina's Dream Interpretation: This dream indicates that in my working life I am looking for security and reassurance, I want to be doing the absolute right thing spiritually and materially. This is something I have felt anxiety for, I have been thinking about how I can bring forth my Highest Purpose at work where I battle with the super clear emotions of children, the good are amazing and infectious, the bad are muddy and infectious. I am, now that I think about it, sort of unsure with my role, and wish to change it a little, I want to change my role when it comes to negative emotions of children in general. 

Perhaps it is my lesson to learn to decide how to help children with their emotions, I have tried different ways, but I think there is Gem I haven't quite figured out yet. Just like adults can't ignore their emotions without building "luggage" to carry-on with them, children can't just ignore their feelings. The common method of "time-outs" is where you are removed from the situation to calm yourself down, which works wonders on kids - how come adults have forgotten that trick? Perhaps there is a way to perfect the “time-out”, generally we discuss with the child what went wrong and what the consequences of their rash actions could be at the end of the minute-per-year time out ( for example a 3 year old can handle 3 minute time out, it adaptable to attention span ).

Why can't we do this as adults!?

I'm 28, so let's say I did something bad, hurt another adult's/teenager's feelings, I remove myself from the situation, spend 28 minutes in contemplation or meditations, or ideally both. At the end of 28 minute I return to the one I did wrong to and tell them how I am aware of what the consequences of my rash words were to him/her and to me and tell them I am sorry. 
And then take a hint from the kids, we forgive in an instant and that incident is let go and we play together again like it never happened, we don't reminisce it and think about it, like kids we let go and live in the present moment where there is only the playing, the game, the fun and the joy!

If this method that works for us as kids… why do we let go of it as adults and start packaging our emotions, upset and troubles to convenient size portions that can be picked up and showed to the person we argue with "as see look at this, you remember this hurt, huh? Yeah you better feel sorry about that one as well!" what useful purpose does old troubles serve you at this moment, how do they make you feel better? They don't. They might make you feel more "Right" at that moment but with the consequences of perhaps loss of love or loss of respect in the near future.

Very interesting - see how good it is to interpret dreams, they give you all sort of insight. :)

So next time an occasion rises, no matter who or what age your opponent, give yourself a "time out" minute-per-year, contemplate and mediate on it, on the consequences of your actions on both sides of the party, then tell your opponent what you discovered and apologise, trust me this guarantees forgiveness ( I see it everyday after all ;) ) as well, after all when you are aware of all aspects of the situation you give out amazing honesty and heart felt apology, the other person feels it and it awakens their heart to listen to and to forgive.

We can only lead by example - as we can only affect our own actions.

Let's bring out “time outs” for us all - you know how to do it, I'm sure you did it as a kid as well. ;) But let's make this a spiritual exercise in stead of punishment.

If you try this - I'd be glad to hear how it went and what you consider the benefits of it, so please comment or e-mail me. :)

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

MAYAN SIGNS - RED COSMIC DRAGON

From Tracey Gendron's ~AstroDreamAdviser~ Mayan Calender Calculator:
http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/free_mayan_readings.html#
~ Click Dreamspell Calculator 
~ Scroll down below the "daily" Daykeepers 
~ Type your birthdate on the Calculator 
~ When you have your sign, reseach it on the start page

I've read my sign many times ever sense I had small Calendar read done at Body, Mind and Spirit Fair when I was 18 - I have had many "oh that is what I want, that is exactly what I think" moments - but today was the first time as I was reading this that I had a feeling of this truly is me, right now - not ideal, not thought, not hope or dream - but Reality.

I've "bolded" the main parts in the text that are as solid of a reality to me as this keyboard I type at.
It is again proof that what happened in April truly truly changed me - I'm bit scared calling in "ascension", but it sure awakened something extraordinary, I cannot, and choose not to feel fear anymore of anything. I cannot see anything except integration anymore, I see the root cause of everything ( which almost gets me in trouble as I state them out loud, people frown upon a intricate plan of billions of nuances manifesting as random accidents or coincidences ), I see in the mirror my spirit and emotions reasons for my body reactions, and others as well, I connect to the main source of my Essence while in a body. Being in this body, experiencing all of this is... it's amazing, there has never been such life in me, such joy over everything, such light towards all!

And still it is within this body, and I can tell there are still matters I need to work on, specifically designed for this lifetime. I am so good at not reacting, but I am not perfect - this is what is left for me, it boils down to all aspects of life, no matter how amazing this existence is, a state of non-reaction is where we have to go to Ascend. Let's have an example, a man can be screaming at me, his face red, poking my shoulder with his finger and I feel calm and powerful, knowing I am under the guardian ship of life itself and what happens needs to happen for everyone's sake, I know I can defuse the situation and if I cannot it is meant to be as well - now a child cannot control their emotions, they project it to you with only the kind of whammy that kids can and I feel dragged, invaded and frustrated. Children are still so connected to their essence that when they direct their emotions at you, and you aren't prepared, it's gut wrenching. With kids you have to have your shield up or you will share the fear, the anger, the pain. Adults are so far from the core essence, at least trouble makers are that you don't need the shield ( well I have noticed I don't anymore ) but kids, oh boy... Which probably explains why I work where I work.

Non-reaction is not easy to learn, and when you come closer to enlightenment it gets harder, you start to work with the essences of lessons, the whammies. ;)
There is only Now.
Where this fits in is that moment where nothing is wrong, and if something is wrong at that moment to let life guide to your perfect solution that is for the highest good of all. Even if it seems a stale mate situations or one sided argument. If I decide not to react, but let life force guide me, I am in serves of our Higher Selves, in service of the only thing that matters, our unity, where you are every bit of proton important as I am, hence I want you to have your share rights and lessons that are infused with mine because I always want your experience to have it's highest possible purpose.
You are my sister or my brother and I want nothing less for you than highest good and perfection.

With that said ( and it is always hard to express insights and revelations ) a little more about me... ;) As if the before wasn't enough! LOL!

"I've "bolded" the main parts in the text that are as solid of a reality to me as this keyboard I type at."

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Red Dragon is your Conscious Self - who you are and who you are becoming.

Red Dragon represents the root source of life, the nurturance and support of primary being, and within it are found the primal waters of unity. This is where your deepest roots receive true nourishment. Red Dragon is the energy of form contained within the formlessness of the primordial sea.

Primal trust means making choices with no guarantees, knowing that divine nurturance will provide what is needed for your journey. It means making choices moment by moment, implicitly trusting your innate steering mechanism of heart-knowing. Primal trust implies surrendering to the will of the divine self, letting go of what your ego deems to be control of the outcomes in your life. It means deeply trusting the processes that are at work within your present spiral of evolution.

The energy of Red Dragon asks you to embrace the depth of your receptivity. Perhaps you have been taught that it is better to give than to receive. Giving is a powerful way to learn how to receive, but it is not the whole picture. There is a circuit of completion in giving and receiving that happens within you and in your external world at the same time. If you trust unconditionally in the giving, you are not attached to how the gift is received. When you freely give, you fill your cup with sweet waters, which you can then offern innocently and purely to another. Know, on one level, that your gift is poured out universally regardless of how it appears to be received. However, when the gift comes from the ego, it is limited by expectations and conditions. Love just is. It is neither given nor taken; rather it is simply discovered and allowed.

The universe is an inseparable whole. Red Dragon represents the energy matrix lines that look like a web in the universe, through which all points are connected in time and space. This energetic web of communication is known as the 'crystal grid network.' It is a cauldron of creation, a potent field in which all things are not only possible but constantly being created. Within this grid, the linear causality of time and space has been freed into an open system in which all time and all space exist and interact simultaneously. This grid connects the larger holograms of reality with our own. Its energy lines connect all places, times and events - even those that are seemingly unrelated. All phenomena and all actions are part of this larger whole; it is the very foundation for telepathy and synchronicity. Red Dragon embodies unity, in which all things are one with the Source.

Red Serpent is your Higher Self and Guide.

"I am the flint and tinder of the sacred fire," reads the meditation for Red Serpent. In the Great Mystery, flint and tinder represent the instinctive combustion that initiates movement in the physical body toward union with Spirit. When flint and tinder are brought together, the spark of divinity awakens and ignites the fire of your essence. Red Serpent invites the purifying spark of the sacred fire, the kundalini, to align and integrate your body, mind and spirit. Red Serpent can help you uncover apparent blockages in specific chakras to clear an align them. If you are working on a process of purification, invite Red Serpent to assist you.
Red Serpent's symbol is the serpent, representing healing and wholeness. This Mayan medicine can remove toxins, rejuvenate and transform dis-ease. Red Serpent is also known by the Maya as the kultanlilni, or kundalini, the energy that moves up from the base of the spine and out through the crown chakra. There are two aspects of this force, the ida and the pingala, representing its male and female polarities. One of the ancient secrets of Red Serpent is the activation of higher states of consciousness through balancing these two polarities so that they dance within us as one. Another metaphor for this serpent energy comes from the Mayan words luk umen tun ben can, or "those absorbed by the serpent of the sacred knowledge." When the seven chakras are fully activated, one experiences an enlightened state.

Red Serpent represents the basic structural apparatus of your motivations, instincts, desires, and your innate movement toward wholeness. Red Serpent asks you to shed the skin of your past and step into the fires of alchemical transmutation. In this, rebirth is revealed. This desire is an innate response encoded in the depths of your being.

With the energy of Red Serpent, you learn to use the innate intelligence of the body. In this culture you may have become separated from this wisdom. It works like this: when you suppress and ignore your issues, your body receives and retains the unconscious metaphors of that which is ignored. This may be expressed through physical symptoms that bring your unconscious issues to conscious awareness. When this happens, work toward a more conscious relatonship with your body - and work with the physical metaphors in order to heal yourself on all levels.

The body has a specific kind of consciousness through which messages are clearly delivered. In fact, the body itself is a living metaphor that mirrors your mind, emotions and spirit. However, the body also remembers all it has experienced, and consequently holds the consciousness of the past within it, including past wounds and traumas. In healing these, remember the innocence of your body. Treat it with love and respect. Open yourself to be aware of its messages and metaphors rather than storing them. Be willing to look at the positive intent beneath any symptoms or physical process your body is using to communicate. Explore whatever it may be asking you to see.

In this alignment process, you can use images or energies that come to you in meditation or dreams. Journey through your body to catalyze and explore any sensations, colors, shapes, or images. In these times we have a profound opportunity to transcend both our physical and our spiritual genetics. The body's integration provides an unparalleled opportunity for personal evolution. Learn to expand and utilize your senses to access your body's wisdom and vitality. Don't 'think' about it; simply allow your body to sense intuitively the solutions necessary for change and growth.

Red Serpent also represents the connection between powerful physical/ecstatic experiences and the light of higher consciousness. This is an initiation of awakening through the body and senses, rather than in negation of them. As Jose Arguelles says in The Mayan Factor, "Like the Maya, we shall understand that the path to the stars is through the senses." Within the body are held the keys to fully awakening our consciousness. This deeper understanding is expressed in tantric practices, where spirituality and sexuality are integrated and honoured as a means to enlightenment. Red Serpent represents the integration of mind, body and spirit.

Red Serpent is associated with the sacred tools of the drum and the rattle. Drums and rattles can break down old patterns or bring energy into alignment.

Yellow Sun is your Subconscious Self and Hidden Helper.

Yellow Sun is a reminder that you are, at every moment, in the center of All That Is. In your journey of remembrance, you are crafting a light body to return to a home in the stars that you never really left. Return as a child of the sacred to the Great Central Sun! You are the crown of creation, infused with the blueprint of solar mind. You are a Godseed, the reflection of cosmic consciousness. You are love made visible!

Discover the simple secret encoded in Ahau's star-glyph: you are unconditional love, the stone of indestructible liberation. Radiate that knowing in all your thoughts and actions. Love all of creation. Join the dance of light, the fundamental constant of nature, and shine forth the clarity of your true essence. There is great power in simply identifying with the light: "As above, so below." You are in God, and God is in you.

As you express unconditional love, you become more than you previously perceived yourself to be. You become illumined, the full manifestation of your divinity. In the embrace of your humanity, accept yourself and others unconditionally. Magnify your full presence. Ahau will come in myriad forms to assist you. Be limitless. Accept and understand the nature of judgement, fear, light and dark within yourself and others. Love and accept yourself and others as you are, freed from previous boundaries. You are the dawning of the solar age.

As you move toward your core of light, you will find a clear-light awareness that is innately innocent. In this place, the mind is restored to it's original state of receptivity. Clarity and freedom become expressions of being, and bliss becomes the body. At this core of light, a new reality is born. From the union of the divine masculine and feminine is birthed the solar androgyny of cosmic consciousness.

Blue Monkey represents your Challenge and Gift. With maturity and awareness this challenge will turn into a Focus. This is what you desire to learn in this lifetime.

There are many facets to Blue Monkey's shadow. The most common of these is not seeing the humour in life's experiences. If you take life too seriously, humour may offer the relief of an unexpected point of view. Follow your divine child, and you will be shown how to "play" your way through any apparently difficult situation. Humour is a great healer and teacher, and a wonderful way to lighten up about enlightenment. ( explains why I work with kids that are hilarious and play-play-play  at all times )

Another prominent shadow of Blue Monkey is avoiding speaking your truth. Do you use humour to express things that you are afraid to say to someone honestly and directly? Do you use humour to hide your vulnerability? Perhaps you use sarcasm because you feel wounded, insecure or unable to express your deep feelings. Such use of humour is a way to bring out hidden anger or aggression. If you find yourself caught in inappropriate play, consciously step out of it and bring in the missing awareness. ( so true, before I did do this, used humor or wit to try and disarm situation or protect myself, didn't work out so I gave up the habit )

Trust your magical child to be vulnerable. Express your feelings - especially your awkwardness - in a direct way. Let go of using pretense or humour as means of masking your true feelings. Like the divine child you are, allow all emotions to be OK, and freely express them without judgement. ( so very true, in the past I tried to mask my vunerability - back then I didn't see the power in vunerability and innocense, like I do now )

The issue of sensitivity also lies in the shadows of Blue Monkey. Perhaps your inner child was unthinkingly wounded or suppressed by social expectation. Perhaps your gift of sensitivity was not supported by parental figures or the culture at large. In order to protect yourself from this criticism, you may have withdrawn, suppressed your self-expression and creativity, or become absorbed in fantasy worlds. Honestly examine any dynsfunctional, hidden reactions or set patterns you may have that resulted from such woundings. Transform this shadow by becoming aware of your emotional reactions and perceptions of insensitivity. Then express the feelings around it before you get too deeply enmeshed in the cycle of emotional reaction. ( LOL! Funny how a year changes your perspective, I can see my before April self in this, but all happens for a reason, I needed to learn these to be who am I meant to be )

In Western culture, many people have a distorted understanding about what it is to be a human being. We are often taught that successful adults are responsible, serious, rigid, controlled, and goal oriented. In your journey with society, your developmental stages may have been incomplete. The natural sensitivity, fluidity and freedom of the child may have been left behind in partial passage. Perhaps your inner child was wounded or treated insensitively, and you carried this unresolved process into adulthood. Blue Monkey encourages you to bring forth this incomplete or wounded part for integration and healing. ( Integration - the magic word! )

This process implies a bounteous connection between Essence Self and Spirit, freed from judgement, denial and separation. It encourages an unconstrained experience of feelings, living your dreams and visions, where everything is sacred and so, by nature, humourous and joyful. Live your dreams! The moment is now. In this co-creative process, your life literally becomes a work of art and the dawning of the new myth.

( ah! the Now, the past is there but not drawn from - what matter is The Now and what I have learned )

In this new myth, your spontaneous, divine child will usher in and anchor the new frequency. How can you heal your inner child? Explore what truly gives you joy. Find types of work that support your sensitivity and create deep satisfaction. Be simple: love, play, dance, draw, colour, sing. These activities are for all divine children - they serve the expression of the magical child in everyone. Consciously make time for the joyful freedom and magic of play!
( "With maturity and awareness this challenge will turn into a Focus. This is what you desire to learn in this lifetime." Well they sure have changed! Working with kids sure has helped )

White Mirror is your Compliment - something that comes naturally to you.

White Mirror represents the Hall of Mirrors, where you can face your own reflection and see the truth about yourself. As a mirror, White Mirror merely reflects what is, whether truth, beauty or illusion. Here you can face unfinished business, the dissonance of difficulties, or charged issues that would keep you from the full expression of your Divinity. Become aware of any illusions or distortions within yourself; your clarity of perception will transform them. Take a moment to see yourself as you actually are, shadow and all, freed from the maze of mental illusion.

Sometimes you may find yourself reacting rather than freely responding to a situation or person. If you have charged reactions such as frustration, anger, fear, judgement or jealousy, look at how you might be projecting these issues onto someone else. The world is the mirror for you to truly see. Any strong reaction to a person or event signals an issue to work on in yourself. Be willing to examine and utilize what you see in your mirrors, in order to transform dysfunctional belief systems, negative thoughtforms, and fixed patterns.

In the Hall of Mirrors there is no good or bad, no right or wrong - there is only the reflection of what is. As you learn to see yourself, you begin to see your emotional reactions as signs indicating where to focus your awareness for growth.

On this quest, come prepared to face White Mirror's sword of truth and purification. The wisdom of this sword penetrates, exposes, and ultimately heals your illusions. Discrimination is tempered with love cleanly cuts away everything that does not serve your evolution. To the Maya, White Mirror is the flint that hones your sword.

The greatest gift of the sword is the power of forgiveness. A profound freedom emerges from forgiveness, the releasing of the illusion of cause and effect. Use the great gifts offered in this blad of truth and light to forgive and release anything you may judge or see as imperfect.

You are already an Enlightened Being!

White Mirror's are able to clearly reflect others back to themselves once their own mirror is clear.

Your Tone is 13 - Cosmic - Wild card, unseen forces, unexpected change, open system, touch of destiny, interdimensional shift.


Thirteen is the ray of universal movement, the foundation of self within the foundation of Essence Self combined with the rhythm of the trinity. The Cosmic Tone of 13 touches you with the hand of unseen forces and radical change. It will catalyze into movement whatever resists change or is unexamined or stationary. You are being touched by fate, moved through identifications of self into open consciousness.

Olin, the Mayan goddess of movement, asks you to surrender to the perfection of the larger pattern of your Essence Self. From the perspective of surrender and trust, what movement is being called for? Pay attention to synchronicities and seeming coincidences that jump into your awareness. Thirteen provides the possibility of a radical "frequency shift," offering you limitless new openings. Become a skywalker. Be open and flexible, allowing changing reference points to become dynamic allies. Open to the workings of destiny offered by universal movement.

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Love, Light and Joy!

Niina