RENOVATION STRESS TEST

Finally done with the renovations, that truly tested some newly found nerves.
Of course the apartment looks better, except for the bedroom that could easily make me cry - but I've noticed it doesn't help to cry, crying induces this state of negativity I blame myself, which really isn't what I want to do. So I let go. On a bigger scale few stripes are nothing when I recall I have four walls there that fulfil their purpose to shelter me and keep me warm, sure due to my own use of acrylic masse the walls aren't exactly pretty, but being an amateur and having no help, what can you expect. I was feeling this deep sense of oh buggers after second coat of paint and kept feeding that fear and hurt machine until it made me cry. But somewhere this morning I let go, something just slightly shifter after accepting this is last night. The walls didn't change, I did. There might come a day when I choose to fix the walls with my dad's help and try begging another 9 litres of paint from my housing company - but until then it has stopped effecting me.

It's like this was a huge big test, the world stating all right we'll give you this but we'll have to test you stress release skills. Renovating with my husband, an Aries, was a bonus test - and I learned the talent of being silent when people are upset instead of feeding it or being a mirror for it.
As me and the roller didn't get along on one wall, the end result was patchy, and it took me few days to forgive myself. It isn't about physical damage our lives, but spiritual wholeness. Everything can be fixed when the mind is at ease, not everything is done in one day. Rome wasn't built in a day.

But now that it is done... it's done, my home will be like this for now, while I charge my batteries after running them near empty with renovation and work. I truly love my shelter as a presentation of the Universal Love, I love the walls, I love the paint, the filler, the trims, the furniture, the color - even in the bedroom.

Pretty good sum for three weeks... Learning to not mirror negativity, learning to accept physical damage without taking it personally and learning how to strip wallpaper the easiest way.

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

DIS'EASE AND ILLNESS AS TEACHERS

I was involved in conversation, of sorts, about helping heal illness.
I know many healers, and I am not blogging this to undermine them or myself because I am a healer as well.
What I am posting here is not a cure all - trust me, and your intuition on that!

But I am going to tell you about managing and curing dis'eases (diseases) and illnesses that have been detected in our bodies. I'm going to use myself as an example here.
Some of you know I have asthma and to it related allergies - I have medication for them as well.
We should never let go of medication as a whole ( yes homeopathic medication counts just as well ) as long as we inhabit human bodies. Nothing in life happens immediately, that is not how creation works on four dimensional world.

So how do I manage illness and dis'ease then?

What I do is research the illness or disease, in my case asthma, then see where it fits in my life and what I can do to change it.
Asthma is pressure in the chest, inability to breathe, suffocation, to me this indicates I am not expressing myself correctly, I am holding back causing pressure in my lungs and chest which indicates communication and speech problems.
What I can do is speak up, open my mind to allow me to communicate, say no, say yes, release any blockage I have concerning being afraid what my words can do.
I believe I have asthma to physically remind me every time I slip to "suffocating" myself by holding in my emotions and thoughts inside as I fear hurting others and them not liking me if I say the wrong thing.
I actually like my asthma now, now that I know why it occurs - and yes I have noticed when I am open, my airways stay open as well. When I silence myself wrongly for a period of time my asthma acts up.

Detecting Consistencies

Whatever it is that you have, especially if it a life long 'condition' I urge you to first study it - get to know everything about it. Then see what it symbolises in your life, Asthma for  communication dis'ease, Back Pain for carrying too much on your shoulders, High Blood Pressure for stress management... Don't just take my word for it, or the word of a physician. You know your spiritual/emotional state, you know your body! 
It helps to ask yourself, alone or in channelling, meditation or with the help from your Higher Self some of these questions: 
What does this organ/body part do? (f.ex.Teeth? Part of digestion process, making things smaller for stomach to be able to digest them) 
What does this present in spiritual light? (Analysing matter to digest them) 
What does it "not working right" mean? (Over analysing can cause teeth problems) 
What can I do to fix this? (Over come the urge to analyse to death, trust your heart, your intuition) 
This dis'ease is a sign, not to be taken lightly or ignored or simply medicated to numbness - this is a sign of what is it in this life time that demands your focus so you may grow.

Life Time Lesson

Asthma is for a Life Time.
It is not "curable" by medical science.
Then from Spiritual view point - why do I have it?
To go deeper for a while, what is the purpose of my life this time around. In this reincarnation what am I here for? What am I here to LEARN?
Asthma = Communication, "deep from the center my being" communication.
Then...
If I were to never learn when to say No, how would my soul evolve?
If I were to never stop fearing what others will think of me for what I have said, how would I Grow at all?
If I were to never breathe easy and be at peace with what I say, if I were to never speak from Unconditional Love that cannot hurt - how would I learn to evolve myself?
You see how important our bodies’ signs for us are?

Our lives, our bodies, are our vehicles of Ascension and Awakening - so why numb them?
Embrace your dis'ease and learn. Bless this Teacher, see its true highest purpose and find Peace.

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

P.S: You might find this blog entry on similar subject interesting:
http://niinac.blogspot.com/2010/09/maintaining-healthy-body-tuning-in.html

TAROT READING: NEXT WEEK'S MEANING

Haven't had a tarot reading in a while so I was suprised I wanted to do one this morning.
I suppose next week has a special meaning if it needs to be shouted out through cards. ;)

When you believe that the world arranges itself to accommodate you and your life with signs and synchronicity it's easy to use our newest tool of deviation - the internet - to help peek into the meaning of our current state (past and future included). That is why it was easy to use the online deck this morning (if you want to use it scroll down my blog and find it at the right hand side, around the middle of the side bar).

Before I start I should say I aimed this reading towards work. And as you read on you should be aware that this week we will as whole group of all-ages of co-workers going to go put out some fires as a part of a safety course.


The card on the middle represents imagination - the prophetic image that stems from the creative force of the previous card to initiate the project.   Ten of Staves (Oppression): A final trial before an enduring reward. The greater the struggle, the greater the reward. (organization, fire department, saving lives, trial by fire, struggle to maintain life)

The card on the left represents emotion - the feelings aroused by or surrounding the ideation of the project that takes place in the previous card.  Eight of Swords (Interference): Emotional disaster. Loss of a beloved person or a valued situation. A sadness that creates a new strength and resolve. (To save lives, to act, you have to feel sympathy and empathy for the people in need of help to be able to thrust yourself to act) 

The card in the top represents the creative force behind the King of Swords: A man of volatile temperament. A born fighter and ruler. A person in complete command. Self-mastery. Expertise. A person who prefers action to reflection - above all, dramatic, decisive action. (In Firefighting you have to have calling, powerful temperment, call to action, strong will, resolution and andrenaline)

The card on the bottom represents thought - the analytical process of organizing the project and capturing the emotional content of the previous card. Page of Swords: A Passionate young person given to seeking out the heart of the matter, even to the point of spying. Vigilance and quiet intensity. (No need to shout out how important life is, how important it is to act right - but it is important to have that fire blazing inside you to do the Right thing) 

The card on the right represents manifestation - the real work involved in completing the project, and the form it will take upon culmination. Two of Swords (Peace): Friendship, especially between student and teacher or younger and older. The adventure and excitement of childhood and adolescence. (What can I say! Who doesn't think putting out fires and saving lives is RUSH? Huh?! ;D )

All these Wands and Swords are screaming deep clear wisdom and authority to hack away opposition, both signs of  ACTION. 

Could have not been a clearer message. "Pay Attention, you will physically need this!"

With this in mind I believe next week will be something that will be of importance in the physical plane - everyday is in spiritual level.

Love, Light and Joy!

Niina

P.S: If you do ask question with the generator, ask without yes or no answer, hold intent of the question as it processes it and  use your intuition as you read the answers, like I did above with the green italics.