INTERNAL INSIGHT ON MY SOUL

I should start by saying I see people....
Really.



I sometimes do have to force myself to really see the person, but normally it comes naturally.
I can meet someone casually, or stand next to them on a bus stop, and no matter if they happen to have something that bothers me, I force myself to see the good, the positive, the purest quality they have. Why? Because we should be able to love everything. Why? Because the opposite of love is selfishness.
And your Soul gets nowhere being selfish.

It's the natural state of the soul to exist, the Soul itself doesn't need love or an ego, it's beyond that, it's pure and needs no adjectives to describe it.
But while we are in our bodies, we do need love and ego to balance us until we continue on from earth.

Selfishness in it's natural state is introverted, guarding, possessive, fearful and negative in all it's aspects.

Love in it's natural state is unconditional, forgiving, empowering, giving, positive and pure.



What I've found that works for me is, equality.
Every single person gets from me positive loving attitude, words and actions. I admit I have my moments of cussing, but it's directed at me. Which is no better, as I am just as unconditionally lovable as everyone else. But I am still a person with an ego, we can't get rid of it, and we shouldn't try, we will eventually be born without it and when that's the case you no longer will be in school (read earth).
My ego does try and rule me, of course it's the Fear in me, ego fears everything that I love, but it's easy to calm it down when you know what it's motives are, after all it's only trying to protect you in it's twisted own way.
It doesn't like it when you are hurt, when people hurt you or when you lose something. It's the epitome of possessive.

It's surprisingly easy to see everyone as equals.

I started when mom use to get into hospitals a lot when I was a kid, she showed me doctors are just as much like us as anyone else.
After that her best friend became star of couple TV shows, and few famous people visited our house too, and again she taught me they are just as human as us.
Many things followed that taught me the same thing, no one is above you or below you.

I have to say seeing people aren't below you is harder than seeing they aren't above you, I think it's in our genetic make-up to feel we can't be put down, but harder to see if we are putting someone down in the process.
When I see something hard for me to accept, like a person who still choose to live on the streets and drink and shout and cuss for a life, I find it hard to find anything positive to see or say. Nothing gets to me like people who don't love themselves… I see this empty vast black hole where there should be a person with gracefulness, light and joy. It is so hard for me, and that's where I have to grow, even if I don't for the love of the goddess and the god understand it doesn't mean I have the right to block that person, they probably need me more than any person who knows love themselves.

To see the good in people and focus on that, makes the person in front of you hold on to the feeling of being loved and they go about wanting that feeling more and acting accordingly to achieve it. What more can you ask from that little life we live than to love and be loved in return.

All this beautiful art that resonates deep into the Soul, can be respectfully found here at Kagaya's Home page:http://www.kagayastudio.com/celes/celes.html and http://www.kagayastudio.com/

SPIRITUAL ORIGIN

What's the Origin of Me?

I have, countless times, wondered and tried to educate myself in the matters of spiritual origin of people. Spiritual Origin of Me.

There are many ways to go with it, and still I seem to relate to the weirdest of them... I know souls come to earth from different places, different pasts...

I still feel that it's important for me to know how human beings came to be.

I know we are just one small portion of DNA away from primates... There is something in that small spec of life that makes us different. Scientist don't know it... people speculate a lot.

There is Personal Truth. Personal Truth depends on the scale of wisdom, scale of experience and scale of memory at the current reincarnation.

That is why people argue, no two minds are at the same level of all three indicators of Personal Truth.

So there is no point in arguing the Origin, the Essence of Humans, because no one will really be able to agree with you in all the details.

So have your personal truth and when you grown, let your personal truth grow too... it would be so unfair to not let part of you grow with yourself.

JAPANESE ESSENCE TO MY HAPPINESS

Bambu with Sented Candle
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

I talked with a new spirit guide today.

I invisioned myself in Japanese Garden, sitting in small garden temple with no wall, just a floor and pillars and the roof, surrounded by a pond, cherry blossom trees, pine needles and a forest.

I was guided by Lii, who told me why I was so invested at the moment in Historical Japanese Culture.

I needed tranqulity, stillness, peace, slow rythm of routine. I had during the past stood too much in the middle of a hectic, busy, nerving, spiralling windtunnel of stress and anxioty. When I finally detached myself from it I slowly found balance that has now grown to search for stillness, peace and tranquility to truly be happy.

First I had to force feed myself joy and happiness to get out of the depression and now that it's done I can really stop and listen what it is that I need so that I can genuinly be truly happy.

Simplicity, Peace, Stillness and Tranquility.

Hobby Basket of Yarn!

Hobby Basket of Yarn!
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

I've gone nuts for crochet and knitting!

Truly I can spend three hour straigh with stick and yarn. LOL!
After that tho I'm so nearsighted it's not funny. ;) Okay maybe a bit funny.
But it just gives me this gorgeous Zen feeling when I have my consentration pointed to one thing only.

I recommend highly. :)

Easter Grass! Happy Easter!

Easter Grass! Happy Easter!
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

In a Finish Tradion we plant grass on small pots or baskets (such as is here) inside the house, we put little chicks in it as a symbol of upcoming spring and fertility, as Finland doesn't have green grass outside yet, and as the ground isn't warmed up yet it means it's not in it's fertile state.
It's sort of an incantion of symbols for an upcoming Spring.

ANGEL CARDS -ARCHANGEL CHAMUEL-

Angel II
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

Archangel Chamuel works on the pink ray of love and being blessed with this archangel card indicates that you are ready to open your heart to unconditional love.

Love has no restrictions and accepts all people as they are. Nor does it judge. True love is so powerful that it dissolves hurt, anger and separation.

Let love flow from your heart and touch your loved ones, those you dislike and strangers.

This creates a bridge of light which the angels can move along to bring hope and peace.

In return your life will be blessed and filled with love.

Affirmation: My heart is filled with the flame of love.

YKSIN - ALONE

Peace
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

Helinä kirjoitti ihanasti yksinäisyydestä viestissään: http://helinakeiju.blogspot.com/2008/01/yksinisyys.html
Joten niin kirjoitan nyt minäkin:

Luulenpa että viimeisen vuoden masennuksen ajan en ole pitänyt tarpeeksi yhteyttä perheenjäseniin ja ystäviin sillä tunnen oloni nyt kieltämättä hiukan hylättyksi.

Järjestelen kaimani kanssa kynttilä bileitä eli naisten illan istujaisia ja kutsumistani ystävistä ja perheenjäsenistä vain 1 pääsee tulemaan, ja olin kutsunut 7.

Voitte siis kuvitella että olo on vähän orpo. Olisin niin kovasti halunnut jutella ystävilleni ketä en ole nähnyt pitkään aikaan, mutta...

Syy kyllä tähän löytyy minusta. En ole antanut aihetta laittaa itseäni tärkeyslistoille, en ole kertonut ystävilleni miksi en ole ollut heihin yhteydessä. Joten itseään on katsottava suoraan silmiin ja löydettävä oma osa-syyllisyytensä. (menneestä) Masennuksesta huolimatta.

Olen aina pitänyt yksin olemisesta, mutta kieltämättä silloin kun haluaisi järjestää jotain hauskaa niin on ikävää kun ei ole ystäviä kenelle järjestää.

Mutta tänään menen ja pidän hauskaa! Saanpahan tavata uusia mahdollisia ystäviä.

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RESIGNED - IRTISANOUTUNUT

Pyrite
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

I resigned from my current permanent job. A strange feeling. I was excited for multiple reasons:
a) I am embarking on an adventure! b) What will people say. c) How people at work will take the news.

But lets say, b & c were the lesser excitement cause I've learned that ultimately, even when living in an intervined sociaty, the person who matters most to you upon making decisions is Yourself.

But it is always intriguing to see how people react, you learn about their character a lot that way.

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Irtisanoin itseni nykyisestä vakituisesta työstäni. Outo tunne. Olin jännittynyt muutamastakin syystä:
a) Lähdin kohti uusia seikkailuja! b) Mitä ihmiset sanovat. c) Miten ihmiset töissä vastaanottavat nämä uutiset.

Mutta sanottakoon että, b & c olivat vähemmän jännittäviä sillä olen oppinut että pohjimmiltaan, vaikka elämme toisiinsa sitoutuneessa yhteisössä, ainoa jonka mielipide on "tärkeä" päätöstä tehdessä on se joka on Sinun itsesi.

Mutta on aina mielenkiintoista nähdä miten ihmiset reakoivat, heidän luonteenlaadustaan oppii sillä hetkellä paljon.

ANGEL CARDS -DETACHMENT-

Angel II
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

According to Universal Law you can have anything your heart desires.

However if your happiness, sense of security or feeling of power depends on someone or something in your life, then you are attached to it. It is a chain which binds you to a lower frequency and keeps you stuck.

Your guidance is to ask the angels to help you cut the cords that tie you to people, things and emotions.

When all attachments are released you can no longer be manipulated emotionally. This enables you to reclaim your power and be genuine.

Free your spirit and that of others. Let go now.

Affirmation: I release everyone and everything. My spirit is free.

TRUTH & HONESTY - TOTUUS & TOTUUDENMUKAISUUS

Softer Side of Cactus
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

In finnish there is subtle differerence in the tone of truth and honesty, truth is always the truth but honesty can be translated to "truthful" which is almost always used as a question.
I found it interesting.
I consider myself truthful and as long as my new life style has been up I have also been telling the truth. Before that there were white lies and such.

With this new situation at the moment I'm again pushed to say thing, what makes me wonder is should I just bluntly say what's going to happen or should I dance around it, not hurting anyone until absolute nessacery. When it's time people will have hurt feelings cause I'll be forced to tell the Truth.
But my place is not to feel for them, I know all consequences of my actions and as aware as I am of them, I know all actions have consequences and this is right for me.

And when I know it's right, it's also the right decision.

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Pidän itseäni totuudenmukaisena (vaikka sillä suomenkielessä onkin hieman kysymys luonne) ja niin kauan kuin olen ollut tällä uudella ilon elämänlinjalla olen myös puhunut vain totta.
Ennen tuota oli valkoisia valheita, ynnä muuta.

Tämän uuden tilanteen johdosta minua taas yritetään saada sanomaan asioita, jonka vuoksi mietinkin tulisiko minun möläyttää suoraan mitä tulee tapahtumaan vai tanssia vastausten ympärillä, niin etten loukkaa kenenkään tunteita ennenkuin on pakko. Kun tulee se aika ihmisten tunteita tulee loukattua, ja vain sen vuoksi että minun on kerrottava totuus.
Mutta minun paikkani ei ole tuntea heidän puolestansa, tiedän kaikki seuraukset teolleni, samoin tiedän että kaikilla teoilla on seurauksensa ja että se mitä tulee tapahtumaan on oikein ratkaisu.

Ja kun tiedän että se on oikein, tiedän että tuo päätöskin on se oikea.

ANGEL CARDS -HONESTY-

Angel II
Originally uploaded by NiinaC.

Honesty is as important in business as in every sphere of life. People sense your level of honour and integrity and respond accordingly.

When you are completely honest with yourself you can be totally open for there is nothing to hide. People respect and trust you and they want to work with you and do business with you.

At all times maintain your own standards regardless of those around you.

Truth ultimately prevails, therefore the sound course in business is to be honest and build your career on a solid foundation.

Affirmation: Honesty pays.