WORK & HAPPINESS

I've been thinking. About work and spirituality - and how they just don't mesh in my life.

Working is very earthy, it's gritty on both sides emotional and physical. I don't really want gritty. I want joy and light and happiness. The thing is I have to work. I should use words as strong as Have To, but it is what it is at the time. So if I do work, then shouldn't I find a job where I can be happy and at peace. Somehow I really grave jobs that are calm, like librarian or book salesman... Perhaps it's not calm but it would be a lot calmer than have aproximately 30 humans be trusting you to make sure things stay alive.

There's great responsibility in being a kindergarden nanny - if you aren't in the business you'll huff at me at this point, if you have been one you know what i'm talking about - I feel I don't want responcibility of others but responcibility of me.

Does that sounds selfish?

Well, it is a little selfish, I am not a person who sets herself first - one of my lesson is to be in union with myself - and I really should but myself and my spirituality first, otherwise I end up a shell of myself.

So in conclusion... I'm looking for a job - a calm, peaceful job.

DREAM --> SPIRITUALITY

DAY 3'S NIGHT - DREAM

This was a mixed salad one, there was five parts but I only recall the last four.

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I was going to a sauna and ran into a guy who was studying and asked me to help him with photoshopping, we talked a while about Layers and Gradient maps. His girlfriend was jealous.
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I was going to take my hubby to spend the morning with me at work the next day but at the last moment told my co-worker that I was coming to work at 12.
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I was somewhere outside in the green nature that had tables and thing on them, I tried on pink blush, but it was super sparkly - I left ended up in a store with one of my kindergarden kids with another close by with the mom, she gave her kid to me like I was already at work. There we're food in the cart, spilling out.
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Alien ship that you walked on top of, agains a sunny sky with clouds. I wasn't attacked but they didn't want me there cause they would get in trouble.

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Sauna = Start of something new in your life.
To Teach = to show inner wisdom and experiences in life.

Work = If seen in a dream as unpleasent means unhappiness at work. (twice)
Green = The color of growth, lifeforce and nature, that reflects hope. (green field with tables on it)
Light color/pink = tells of positive things, purity and ideals. (the pink blush)
Food = The context of your life, symbolises the spiritual and physical health.

Spaceship = Spiritually open space, indicates you want to broaden your living surrounding and learn new thing in the spiritual field ( so what does it mean when I wasn't exactly welcome?)
Airplane(spaceship) = If the plane is high it symbolises grand scale aspirations - Being on the plane means speedy progress towards the goal.

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I should see a new beginning of some sort, possibly sharing my wisdom and experiences. My current work isn't what i want to do very seriously - I have always wanted a palce in a spiritual community and work there. There seems to be hope for my ideal job. I really do want a positive working enviorment, I wan't to upkeep the purity of my soul in everyday life. Right now I seem to be in perfect spiritual health (as the food was over flowing the cart), which means I get to see things clearly now. Now the spaceship - Grand scale aspiration in broading my spiritual life - I am working for the goal as we speak. I was so sure I wouldn't be able to understand this herring-salad* of a dream - but it all makes perfect sense now!

*finnish proverb - basically herring salad has so many ingredients that it's a complite mess.